Rachellem's Journal

Oh God I know my diverticulitis is back. The pain in my stomach and like the last time my tongue has turned very pale. I can't keep on going on antibiotics ever couple of months for frigs sakes.I am also getting palpitations so bad. I don't know if it's because of another infection in my body again or being anxious over being sick or a combination of both. I am so terrified that I am going to need surgery and I am even more terrified that this is something even worse then diverticulitis.What if the doctors made a mistake and it is something else even worse. Oh God please I just want to not be sick anymore. I just want to not be freaking out of my mind with anxiety all of the time.