female, married, one son, owner Pilates studio, travel extensively, one beautiful doggy that I am passionate about, metaphysical belief that we are spirit having a human experience. Neglected and unnurtured by parents (God rest their souls.) Emotionally abused by all the fighting in parental home. Sexuality molestation started (from what I can remember) at age 4 by Nanny's brother, in his 50's. Sexual molested by brother from 8-13. Attempted suicide at age 13. Parents never spoke a word to me about it. Ran away from home. Was "emacipated" another nice tidy word from abandoned by parents at 14. Survived by sheer gut and will. If I thought the abuse was bad at home, the terror began at 14 until 18 when I finally started to claim my life. Many many facets to complex stress disorder from multiple traumas. Surviving surviving surviving. Once was thriving, now surviving and want to thrive again. So happy I discovered this group!!!!
female, married, one son, owner Pilates studio, travel extensively, one beautiful doggy that I am passionate about, metaphysical belief that we are spirit having a human experience. Neglected and unnurtured by parents (God rest their souls.) Emotionally abused by all the fighting in parental home. Sexuality molestation started (from what I can remember) at age 4 by Nanny's brother, in his 50's. Sexual molested by brother from 8-13. Attempted suicide at age 13. Parents never spoke a word to me about
Artist of many mediums. Design, painting, writing, creating, dance. Love my Pilates studio and helping other achieve their fitness and health goals. Crazy about my schnauzer Bella Schnucklputz (meaning Beautiful sugar baby). Athletic, though not as much as before. Getting into playing golf. Never though I would do that hahaha. Beginning to artitically create "masks, " avery symbolic connection to the many masks a CPTSD survivor often wears to hide the pain and the fear and am really interested to see what comes out of that!!!! Reaching the goal of not isolating, a strong personal tendency, but consistent with the many paradoxes as a PTSS (S=survivor) not a professional one. So I live this deeply private personal life, yet in constant contact with the external world through my work. WANT TO WRITE THAT BOOK!!!!! Am spearheading the first PTSD group in my city in May. I want a book about surviving PTSD through the eyes of those of we who suffer from it...not these highbrows clinicians who have it all neatly scripted right down to why you shouldn't take anxiety medication even if in the middle of the throws of pts you feel like you are losing your mind! Huh. Let them hear it from survivors! I want to write about the different ways that PTSD developed in any given person and also what they did to cope, both negative coping skills (honor them, because sometimes they were the only way we survived!!!) to positive coping skills. Anything that anyone has found useful when in the throws of a pts onslaught. I am absolutely committed to writing a book from a surivors perspective and not a clinical dissertation by someone who has not lived it!!! Motivated and so grateful to have found this group!!!
Artist of many mediums. Design, painting, writing, creating, dance. Love my Pilates studio and helping
April 7, 2009 4:33am
so other than the fact that i have insomnia after driving all day from one destination to an other, i guess it is a little it of hypomania even …
February 19, 2009 10:23pm
I have been in a horrific episode of PT since Jan 6 when my husband and I hate a very "unexpected" fight (confrontation without compassion= …
you doing okay
Hi pg! where have you been, busy I am sure! Sending you a hug of support for a busy life!
Hi pg! Thank you for thinking of me, I hope all is well with you. Back online after an episode hugs to you. sjaypetwo
Childhood abuse emotional and sexual, hospitalized once for depression, finally and feel very accurately diagnosed with PTSD which I have had for years whatever the mental health community is far behind the survivors, creative, artistic, intelligent, struggle with the emotional roller coaster of PTSD
