Journal

So I decided I need to walk more and on a regular basis.  It can be at work, at home, in the morning, at night or anywhere anytime - just as along as I do it and try to be regular about it.

I go to see the Dr. today and inquire about a possible meds change.  Trying to get a counselor (to begin with) and a regular scheduled appt. at this time feels impossible - counselors are either booked or what they have available does not mesh with my schedule, especially now that the kids are out of school and I am still working fulltime - some days they come to work with me - others they are in camp.

But I know in my heart I need to deal with what is going on inside - feelings of sorrow, pain and questions about why....and the drinking needs to remain under control as it was during my surgery recovery, but I feel it slipping - the social drinking I have started has gone awry a bit and I feel I am losing control over it.

Another journal entry tomorrow - hopefully another walking goal entry, too!

To my new dear journal-

What an opportunity - to record and be able to come back and review all of my accomplishments (and bumps in the road) for the next few days, weeks, months, years of my life.

And what a life it is.  Oh...I am so grateful and happy to be here - the stats were stacked against me with the ruptured aneurysm I had in March of this year, but I am truly blessed to have the life I have.

I hope to try to write daily, even if it is a short entry, and keep a record of the happenings in my life.

Tonight I feel good about the accomplishments I have made in life and where things are headed for me and my family.