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oXPureSilenceXo 
9:01am, May 10, 2009
Been an awesome day today.
I fianlly realised that I don't need my medication to stop me from having my anxiety attacks.
I really enjoyed CBT today, unlike like my first session when I was actually on my meds.
I am really starting to fee confident on my own too.
My fiance had to run back home to get the electric key..
I was left in town for like an hour on my own and I felt ok.
Yes a little on edge but not like I would normaly feel.
It's been an awesome postive day today..
I hope I get more of these soon.
Also started a natrual remady for depression today, st johns wort.
I know this stuff will work way better than any man made stuff. :3
UPDATED GOALS
Gain some confidence
Progress 30%
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To go out on my own
Progress 20%
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To get over my Anxiety
Progress 20%
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Comments
I think i need help
Part of me is calling out for help.
The other half is saying your finnnneeee
I am drink jd gone though half a bottle already
I am think of mky dad.
Who doesn't love me
he prefers the perfect emily my half sister whos got grades coming out of her ears..and is perfect and wondeful
I have tryed to open my hear to him
but he hates me
he hates what I have become.
I hate what I have become.
I don't work
I don't contripute to the family.. I dont do anything awesome
I hate myself...
I am loved by my mum and my fiance.
But even though I hate my dad...I want him to love me like he loves my half sister...
I want him to nbe proud of me in some way.
He didn't even come to see me when I was rushed into hospital ):
I dunno what else to say....
Part of me is calling out for help.
The other half is saying your finnnneeee
I am drink jd gone though half a bottle already
I am think of mky dad.
Who doesn't love me
he prefers the perfect emily my half sister whos got grades coming out of her ears..and is perfect and wondeful
I have tryed to open my hear to him
but he hates me
he hates what I have become.
I hate what I have become.
I don't work
I don't contripute to the family.. I dont do anything awesome
I hate myself...
I am loved by my mum and my fiance.
But even though I hate my dad...I want him to love me like he loves my half sister...
I want him to nbe proud of me in some way.
He didn't even come to see me when I was rushed into hospital ):
I dunno what else to say....
Comments
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Just being you is plenty awesome. You don't have to do anything other than that.
I have to journal this just because it's nice to let people know how happy I am at making a new awesome friend on DS.
I call him Mr Lee he knows who is he :P
His funny and awesome on so many levels.
I think everyone should get to know him!
He makes me feel good about myself ^_^
He is epic and I am glad to have meet him on here.
WOOT for Mr Lee!
-claps and cheers-
Thank you DS for helping me meet such an awesome friend ^________^
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So glad you're feeling better kiddo. Keep it up! And don't forget to be gentle with yourself. You're doing great.
misterhandsome