TonyRay's Journal

So my wife who wants a divorce and seems to be going through a midlife crisis spontaniously ran off to LA the night before Easter to go to see the actor she is infatuated with.  She has pictures around the house of him, is writing an erotic novel about him thats at least 8 inches think, and became the Administrator of a forum for him in a very short period of time.  Apparently her online friend that she met maybe 4 weeks ago knows this actor sort of ... at least has his email ... so she contacted him and got him to go out to coffee with them.

Well she calls me tonight and talks to me like I am her girlfriend ... talking nonchalantly about how she met him and how she got a kiss from him and how he drove her in his car ... and acting like I should be happy for her ... realize ... she ran off on me and our 5 year old son and 9 year old daughter the day before Easter to do this ...

I sit and listen to this long long fun filled description as if I am supposed to be happy for her ... happy she is having fun ... happy she is chasing her dreams and fantasies without me ... happy that she is meeting people and going out because she is getting a divorce from me and doesn't care about me anymore ... doesn't love me anymore.

Well I try to be calm ... even though I want to scream at her ... eventually I can't take it anymore ... she wants me to get this ... pick he up from the airport ... and is mad at me for not letting my kids stay at her moms ... sorry THEY ARE MY KIDS and I am not going to give them up ... I am not going to let them stay overnight anywhere so I can pick her up from the airport ... I want them with ME.

She gets all bent out of shape about it ... as if I am wrong ... as if I am doing something wrong when she RAN OUT on her kids on EASTER!  

I tell her I don't understand how you can think that you can call me and that I will sit and be happy for you ... that I will be ok with this all ... you are messing up my mind ... I get a call like this and think you might still have something for me ... might still love me ... only to find out that you are just treating me like your best girlfriend ... and that I should be SO HAPPY for you ... I am here watching the kids ... fighting for my life, my kids life, my dogs, my house ... my everything ... and you think its ok ... that I should just sit back and accept it ... that I should just be Ok so happy your gallivanting around and having fun because you feel your free to because you are divorcing me! WTF!

My god I am crying my eyes out every day ... almost non stop ... crying about everything I am losing and that my family is losing ... and she things I should be HAPPY for her ... HAPPY she is on Rodeo drive getting kissed on the cheek by an actor ... happy she spent $2000 on a trip on Easter without her family ...

She's out of her freaking mind ... insane ...

Now I am supposed to be happy she is going to do it again in a few weeks with this chick in New York ... where is this money coming  from!?!  Happy she is going there to meet this actor and another actor from the show with her new best girlfriend that she met online 4 weeks ago! WTF!?!

She is certifiable ...

http://www.dailystrength.org/c/Breakups_Divorce/forum/6781877-part-her-mind