Journal Entry for June 15, 2009
June 15, 2009 8:44pm
Well I have been busy spending the last couple weeks looking for a job and getting my resume together. Jen and I have a truce right now. …
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TonyRay
8:36pm, June 15, 2009
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Journal Entry for June 1, 2009
June 1, 2009 9:23pm
Well sorry everyone I haven't posted in a bit. Things have been going roughly the same ... maybe a little better and my wife and I have …
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Journal Entry for May 22, 2009
May 22, 2009 8:22pm
Its my birthday today ... all I got was three arguments about nothing ...
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Journal Entry for May 14, 2009
May 14, 2009 4:52am
It all blew up again ... I don't even know why ... we were actually getting along well and then we started talking about something …
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Journal Entry for May 12, 2009
May 12, 2009 3:03am
Hi Everyone,Sorry that I haven't been on much in the last week or so ... I've been ok ... kind of confused ... things are getting better but …
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I am sure hurting big time
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Hey Tony, I am doing wonderfully... better than I have been in months (finally). How about you? Having any luck with things ? hopefully soon... we all need to be happy already... dammit..
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Happy Fathers Day
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Hey Tony....Sorry this is raining so bad on you. Me similar....separated from STBX and moved across country only to not work for 2 months, fall behind on all my bills and then have to move back across country to the only work i could find.....I am still struggling just to get back to balance and still going through the divorce process....Hopefully my friend we have sunny days to come!
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Hey Tony...thanks so much. Sorry you seem to be having a rough night/morning yourself. It's been over a year since everything ended, yet he still haunts me. Sometimes I'm able to go back to sleep, but other moments my mind just won't shut off when he enters my thoughts and I begin to feel sorry for myself or something. I can't even explain the feeling I have. Thanks for the hug...it was much needed. Right back to ya...and hope you have a great day.
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Close Breakups & Divorce
After a 20 yr relationship and 14 yr marriage my wife has decided that she wants to get a divorce & that none of the years we spent together were happy for her. All I have is her and the children. I have no family and all the friends we had are hers or her family. I feel like I am losing everything. I am so scared and so alone. I have a hard time sleeping and eating & I find myself crying uncontrollably. I never thought she would do this to me.
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Not Working
- Doesn't help if she wont go because "its to late".
- Leave Not Working
- I only feel more lost and alone.
- Love Not Working
- I love her and am showing affection but she doesn't love me anymore.
- Music Not Working
- It only makes me sad and think about whats happening more.
- Pets Somewhat Helpful
- My dogs make me feel loved and do help.
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Its helpful but I feel like I need more than I get.
- Support Groups Too Soon to Tell
- Joined a few groups but I am introverted and scared of this a bit.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- It helps but I need more people to talk to.
Close Infidelity
After 14 years of marriage and 20 years together since we were 17 my wife has told me she wants a divorce. Many of her actions indicate she is having a midlife crisis in my opinion. We are still living together with our two children in our home as "room mates". I recently found evidence that she is having online affairs and phone sex with other men and essentially dating.
Treatments
- Divorce Considering
- She wants a divorce and I want to work it out. I love my wife and who she was before all this. I want the woman I fell in love with back. However the evidence of infidelity and the fact that she is using me and endangering her children makes me feel that divorce may be necessary.
- Leave Somewhat Helpful
- Getting out of the house and thinking on my own is somewhat helpful.
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- Crying does help but when you cry uncontrollably it can be to much.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Talking to someone about the situation helps. I just wish I could go every day.
Open Non-hodgkin's Lymphoma
Type: Low Grade Non-Hodgkin\'sA few years ago I felt a few strange lumps on my back and when to the dermatologist. After biopsy I was diagnosed with Primary Cutaneous Margninal Zone B Cell Lymphoma.
Treatments
- Rituxan Not Working
- I had several infusion treatments and it really didn't seem to work at all.
Open GERD & Heartburn
I have severe acid reflux where I wake up some days after choking on acid that went down my windpipe. I now sleep with a couple couch pillows under my mattress to raise my head.
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- This does seem to help but it can be no fun eating only healthy foods.
- Prevacid Working / Worked
- It works ok but I have to take two pills a day to have it work and I still needed to change my diet a bit.
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ChildIn 1999 my mother died and that was hard because we never got along and I didn't get a chance to tell her how much she really meant to me. In 2001 my 9 month old daughter died due to complications in surgery. There isn't a day I don't think about her and what she would have become. I miss her terribly.
Treatments
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- Crying helped for both situations somewhat but I still think about all the lost time with these two people I cared so much about.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- My wife was my real support system for me but I now am losing her to divorce.
Open Pneumothorax
In 2006 I was coughing up blood and had chest pain. It was determined that I had a Pneumothorax due to cavities in my lung. Since then I have had reoccurring asthma problems.
Open Child Support & Custody
I am in the initial stages of a divorce and am concerned about the child support and custody issues related to it.
Open Family & Friends of Bipolar
My wife is acting irrational and wants a divorce ... she has become obssessed with an actor and is doing things that seem like she is a bull in a china shop hell bent on wrecking everything without any concern. I think there is something wrong with her but she denies it ... several people have said that they think she might be bipolar. I'm not sure and am looking into that and hoping I can find answers and a way to help her.
