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About Me

Many years back I started feeling very weak and out of breath. Then things started shutting down(Bladder, Bowels. etc). I started having trouble with balance. I would wake up, have a cigarette and go back to sleep. I was barely eating. My wife was convinced it was MS. Doctor ran every test targeting blood and brain. They had no clue. I got better, cept the lining was eaten off my nerves. I had lost lots of weight. Ive always struggled with depression. 3 years ago I started on Cymbalta. Quickly after that I had to deal with RLS(restless leg syndrome). I was put on Requip for that. I started to notice that my sight was diminishing rapidly so I reduced the requip to a minimuim. My eyes got better. I started smoking again(quit 1 year cold turkey) thanks to the cymbalta. Psych decided to switch me to welbutrin. Psych got in car accident didnt return for 6 months. (11/2007)Replacement told me to stop all meds, get some sun and counseling. Jan 2008 started on St Johns wort. March 2008 I was hit really hard with tinnitus(tinnitus side effect = ANXIETY) following seperation discussion with wife. I patched things up with wife and started searching for answers. sept 08 I was laid off. I gave up on the St Johns Wort and headed into deep depression/anxiety cycles. Came real close to suicide. I kept sensing a certain nasty smell and it was coming from me. I figured I had every cancer imaginable. Started on Lexapro(half what the dr prescribed) and started taking extra vitamins. Kicked the lexapro Dec 08. Kept trying different vitamins hoping that the noise would just go away. Tears would erupt anytime I had a moment of just decrease in the sound. I quit smoking for 4 weeks here and there. I just kept smelling that smell unless I smoked, then I didnt smell it. So I stopped quitting and started poking holes in butts to reduce the tar and nicotene. In Jan 09 I switched to Soy milks and rarely have reg milk. The only thing I can say about this is it stopped hurting when I would pee. Peeing has been a battle since I was sick. In June 09 I stopped eating breads and cereals and slowly moved to a gluten free diet. I am not a celiac since I have not been diagnosed. At night I usually get up and down from the pain in my arm which originates from the compressed ulnar nerve in my elbow. It can be very painfull and it only happens when I go to bed and lie down.

Many years back I started feeling very weak and out of breath. Then things started shutting down(Bladder, Bowels. etc). I started having trouble with balance. I would wake up, have a cigarette and go back to sleep. I was barely eating. My wife was convinced it was MS. Doctor ran every test targeting blood and brain. They had no clue. I got better, cept the lining was eaten off my nerves. I had lost lots of weight. Ive always struggled with depression. 3 years ago I started on Cymbalta. Quickly after

Website

http://myspace.com/psychowardone

Interests

getting rid of my tinnitus, and writing music again. "Our minds are formed by the experiences we grow up with and they survive by the environment we feed from"

getting rid of my tinnitus, and writing music again. "Our minds are formed by the experiences we grow