jimgreg's Journal

i was on litiem 7 monthes last yr..went sevre toxic 12/07/08..not been on any meds except the xanax to keep things in check..im also not alowed to ever take lithiem again..i just found out threw the hospitail reports..i went toxic due to lack of fluids..i didnt realize this till i read the report..i rember in November at thanksgiving i got sick..and stopped drinking anything..so i went threw hell on the toxic ..was in i.c.u. 4 days...its a real good M.S....I RECOMMEND IT FOR MANIA AND SERVE MANIC ONLY THOUGH!!!

MY PROBLEMS IVE HAD IN THE PAST SINCE THIS TIME FRAME..IVE HAD FLASHBACKS FROM THE WHOLE 2 WEEKS WILE IN TOXIC STATE..THEY DID A  CT NO CONTRAST O MY BRAIN TO SEE IF ANY DAMAGE WAS DONE..IT CAME OUT NEG..BUT THIS WAS THE TIME IN THERE IN 08.

THE PROBLEMS IVE BEEN NOTICING THE PAST 8 MONTHES OR LONGER..ARE THAT I CAN SENSE THING'S THAT HAPPENED LIKE THE SUN THE WAY IT SHINES AT TIMES OR A SMELL,,OR SIGHT..BUT IT ONLY LASTS A FEW SECONDS..DOESN'T HAPPEN ALOT BUT IT DOES..THERE WILL BE TIMES MOSTLY WHEN IM HERE IN THE SAME APT THAT I HAD THE HOULNASIONS AT..I WONT TELL THEM YOU WOULDNT LIKE THEM  AS I DONT WANT TO REMEMBER..

SO YOU MIGHT OR MIGHT NOT UNDERSTAND ME,,MABEY YOU BEEN THREW THIS,,OR NO SOMEONE WHO HAS THAT MIGHT BE ABLE TO EXPLAIN IT TO ME..

IM VERY MEDICAL  INCLINED BUT THIS ISINT IN MY LEAGUE..I WOULDN'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO APPROACH SOMEONE ON THIS..THEN THEY MIGHT THINK YEAH HES FLIPPED LOL  I HAVENT FLIPPED ..IM VERY CONCERNED ABOUT IT..IF IT WILL EVER GO AWAY OR GET WORSE..

THE PROBLEMS NOW I HAVE SEASONAL DEPRESSION LACK OF SUNLIGHT..AND THIS IS GETTING CLOSER TO THE TIME WHEN IT HAPPENED,,SO I HOPE MY MIND JUST PASSES THREW THIS AWFUL TIME....BEFORE THIS HAPPENED I WOULD TAKE ANY MED THEY PUT ME ON FOR MY DIAGNOSIS IS BP1 AMONG    OCD   GAD   SAD   PANIC..BUT SINCE I WENT THREW THIS TIME I HAVE BECOME VERY WEARY OF PSYCHIATRIC MEDS..IM SUPPOSE TO BE ON LAMICTAL  I HAVE IT HER WITH ME..I SEE MY PDOC NEXT WEDNESDAY..HES NOT REAL HAPPY ABOUT ME NOT TAKING THEM.ON THE OTHER HAND HES NOT VERY UNDERSTANDABLE EITHER..

I TRY TO TALK TO HIM HE JUST SAYS IM FOR MEDS ONLY..MY THERAPIST DOESN'T SEEM ALL THERE,,SHES HAD ALOT OF HER OWN PROBLEMS.....

SO IF ANYONE KNOWS  WHAT I CAN DO ABOUT THE FLASHBACKS OR WHO TO ASK??                     THANKS   FOR READING THIS  JAMES