strumphyy's Journal

My ex bf wasn't perfect. Neither was I. In fact, watching myself I wonder how can a person will ever be able to put up with me or not get annoyed. I have issues, I am annoying, and I am boring.

My ex boyfriend sometimes had an obnoxious laughter, altough a most beautiful smile. He was sometimes cocky, and I hate that in a guy, and yes, even though I never confessed this to him, I didn't really like his music.. He would usually send me songs on messenger, I would say i am listening, but heard Mariah Carey in stead.

I am worse than him. I have many, many flaws. Some of my friends don't like me, some have stopped talking to me.

So what makes two persons, two humans and complete strangers stick together for so much time? I mean with my way and his way combined, two years seem eternity.

I guess love. That's why I think love isn't from this soiled planet, where we all are so small, and helpless, and mean sometimes, and bad looking in the morning or when we're drunk. It's the miracle we have, for us to really get intimate and don't worry about being fat or having a crooked nose. That's what love is.

My ex had a belly. He tried to hide it always. That's what I miss most.