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Hi all I live with 4 others we have bin liveing to gether 4 around 30 years . They are a falmily of 4 i am the odd ball but they ecpect my as ther own. i have put them though meny issuess with my bi-poler one of my roomies has it to. His wife has ocd and other things she is hard to live with she flips back an forth to one who is good and not so good Margie the mom is 72 and takes care of her mom who is 95 and she is bed riden she takes real good care of her. Actualy she takes care of all of us. I have a daughter she has 3 childern and a son with 2. I have bin in counseling since 1984 and in meny hospitals. In one my room mate took her on life and I frond her. we all have stores of state places sorry my spelling is not so good when no one is around to ask. I go to med group ounce a mouth and see a therpist 2 times a week. I do get out and play bingo with friends we must take care of our selfs as best as we can. We need others to help cope with our b-p. The dr. said that I dount have much left up there but what I have I use well. I cant do math at all but can handle my chack book moust of the time. God is my best friend he helped me to quite useing drugs and alcahol I jouned the church and it has bin great. I also go to a group in the comitey for us over 50 we have a swell time. the more I get involed in thing I fell better about my self. dount get me worng I do get nervrus and dount wount to be ther but i force myself. some times I thing people are after me or watching me or go out of my body. Sometimes people look at me funey but I just look at them back.