hurtingangel's Journal

  Hi everyone. Well the saga continues. On Friday of last week I saw my family practice DR as my shoulder has been hurting so bad and it just kept getting worse. He too was concerned and He ordered an MRI right away. I went last Sat. On Wed I recieved the test results, I have a fractured clavical (other wise known as collar bone, or at least that is way I was told.) anyhow I must have fractured it when I fell the first week in Nov.

Yesterday night (Thur night) I was going up the stairs, I had gone up 3 or 4 and all of a sudden my knee gave out and I fell straight backwards I first hit the corner edge of the wall with my shoulder and head as I started to land on the floor my body had turned into a bad position. At that point my head and should again smashed into a 3ft high heavy ceramic vase that I have (go figure it didn't break lol) I have never been so scared in my life.  I layed on the floor for a good 15min and just started crying the pain was so horrific , my shoulder and lower back felt as if though they had been shattered . My wonderful puppy Louie came running over and started licking my tears. I didn't know how I was going to get up as the place where I fell there really was nothing I could grab onto and pull myself up with.

I started with the toes and worked my way up everything seemed to be moving. With great pain I managed to roll over got to my knee's and grabbed the door frame and pulled my self up. I tell ya if it's not one thing it's another & I am so sick and tired of it. I'm sick of the pain and pretending it will all get better. I spoke with my Dr today he wanted me in right away besides the pain I have been throwing up alot. I made the appt for today then cancelled I just didn't feel like seeing him again and having more tests. I'm going in on Monday and promised him if it kept getting worse I would go to the ER or urgent care. Sorry for all the complaining and venting.  I want just one day where I feel normal. I feel so bad complaining when so many others out there are way worse off than I to those I say please forgive me. I wish each and every one of you a blessed Thanksgiving.

As much as we all hurt there are others who don't know about this wonderful site and I am so grateful for it. I would like to throw out  a challenge to everyone. Pick up the phone and call someone you have not spoken to in a while if nothing else just to say high, pay for the persons groceries in front of you if your able. Lets all try to find some way to pay it forward. I don't know how I will do it yet but I will as If it were not for this site I don't know if I would still be around to say thank you to all of you who have been there for me. That being said, May your coming week be filled with rainbow's sunshine & all that makes your heart happy

Hugs & God bless

Lisa