IsItTrue's Journal

I really need some support. I feel like I have no where to turn. I'm starting to base my self-worth off of other people and I don't know how to make it stop. All I ever want to do is hurt myself. I hate the way I look, I hate the way I feel. I feel so alone. Like no one wants me. Not even my friends. I feel like I'm the last that people worry about. I feel like I spend all of my time making other people happy and I really just don't know how to make myself happy anymore. My parents are pissed because I smoke. My friends are mad because I cut. I'm mad because I hate me. I pretty much hate me most of the time now. I'm pretty sure I'm not ever going to be in a relationship that I am myself in. I'm worried that I'll never know real love because all people ever want from me is my love. I don't ever get any back. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of all of this. Why do I do what I do each day...I ask myself that everyday now and I CAN'T FIND AND ANSWER. I have no one, nothing to live for. If I'm living for myself I don't know why I'm still here. 

Any advice will help. I really just need to know someone hears me.