snowpea09's Journal

I don't know why it is I feel like I don't fit in anywhere anymore.  Even in my own home I feel uncomfortable.  The littlest things make me either anxious or upset.  I feel alone most of the time. 

I take comfort in going to the outpatient program my doctor suggested, however what am I gonna do when they release me from that.  I was trying so hard to get a job and pull my shit together so my daily routine would at least be something.  But that has become more of a challenge than a simplicity.  I can't put paige in preschool until I have a job and I can't get a job with out her in school.  So what in the world am I supposed to do?! 

My body and my brain aren't working well together anymore.  I can't concentrate on even simple things.  How I'm gonna get through the big things is gonna be a wild ride.  I gotta find something worth holding on to fast and stick with it.  I'm numb and running out of fuel.