Felecia95's Journal

I have given this all too much tought.

Today, we are getting ready to set sail.  I love the ocean.  I adore cruising.  I feel like it is the only vacation in the world where you can TRUELY let go of everything and just RELAX.  Everything is taken care of for you.  Lovely!

We are leaving today on a 4 day get away to the Bahamas where we spent our honeymoon almost 15 years ago.  It will be nice to see how things have changed in Naussau.

We will sail tonight, tomorrow we will be in CocoCay, the private Island.  Wednesday is all day at Naussau and then we will have one final day at sea to just relax and let it all go.

My hope and prayer is that we can put all of this behind us and move on with our lives.

We tried, we failed, but at least we can say that we did everything we could to have a child of our own.  My intention is to refocus all of my energy upon our return.

If I am not going to be a mother, I should at least be HOT!  SOOOOO, after enjoying this nice relaxing 4 days on the beach and ocean and consuming large amounts of rich fabulous food, I will return to focus on Operation Get Sexy.   I would ideally like to loose 40 lbs, but I will focus on being healthy and happy.   I need to devise a plan to make this happen.  Saying goodbye to the junk food will be a big step in the right direction and portion control is a much needed observance.  I have been watching "You are what you eat" , "Biggest Looser", "The last 10 Pounds" and "The Bulging Bride" all weekend.  This is my motivation.  I can do this.  I want to have something in my life that I am proud of.  Something that I can accomplish!

Anchors Away my friends!  Bon Voyage!  Talk to you  all on Friday and hopefully I will be a new woman=)