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Felecia95 
2:23pm, October 3, 2009
It's been almost 2 months since my failed IVF.
I still wake up and cry. I am still not sure what we are going to do.
Financially we are done. We put all our eggs in one basket and that was that.
We still have 4 frozens hanging out waiting for us, but we can't afford to go on at this point.
I have not contacted my doctor's office. I am not sure I can handle that yet.
Roger and I are going on a 4 day cruise to the Bahamas this week. We both need some time away and some time to regroup.
My friend has been dragging me to the gym 3 days a week, which is helpful. I really need to find a way to rechannel my stress. Right now, I am eating it and that is not helping at all.
If I could just refocus my stress into exercise and hit the gym 6 days a week, I would see some results and I might start to heal if I can refocus my energy on something else.
I am not in a good place right now and this last failure has completely shaken my faith.
It is what it is. This is what I keep telling myself. Some of us are just not meant to be mothers. It is what it is.
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Always keeping you in my prayers. Wishing you the best of luck on the healing process.I know its hard but I havent walked in your shoes so...I am glad to hear you are hitting the gym though.I need to dust the cobwebs off my Wii Fit.If you ever need anything I will be here for you.
nanda1979
Hey Felecia - I'm sorry this has been so difficult for you - I think it's great that you are working out with a friend - take care of yourself and give yourself time to grieve and heal. A trip away with your husband may be just the ticket. Take care of yourself.
ChristineSam