Journal

So far, redirecting my energy has been a challenge.

BUT today I made progress.

I have been going to the gym on Tues/Thurs only with my friend Jan.  She is just maintaining her current weight so this is all she does.  She walks on treadmill for 20 min and then we bike for 15 min and then we do a very select few of the weights and go home.

I knew, that this would get me STARTED, but that I really needed to break out and get busy if I want to see this 30 pounds leave my hind end.

SO I am so proud of myself today because I did it.

I woke up, I ate a healthy breakfast, I drove to the gym ALONE.

I did 35 min on the eliptical (almost died) and 25 min on the bike.  This is just the first step, but I know that I am stepping in the right direction.  I am really hoping that husband and I will take the dogs hiking tomorrow at the state park for a couple of hours and that will be so great.  We will see how the weather holds. 

I actually feel happy today which is a new feeling for me after the failed IVF.  It's going to be okay. 

OK

so I have this year free membership that my lovely friend gave to me.  I may as well attempt to put it to good use!

I am going to the gym.  We are supposed to meet at 7:30pm, but I am going to try and go a little early to try and get in 10 min on the eliptical before she gets there. 

LORD be with me.

Today is exactly two months since our hopes and dreams died.  I think I am coping very well.  I feel good about this.  I have a goal to work towards.  I am not pushing myself too hard or beating myself up.

I want to be SEXY by the time we take Roger's Birthday Cruise in January 2011.  That gives me exactly 15 months to make my progress.  I can do this.

CHINS UP.......that's right....I said CHINS.....and off we go.

This is it.

Tomorrow Morning begins OPERATION GET SEXY.

It's a challenge.  I stepped on the scale this morning to evaluate the situation and was appalled at what stared back at me.

Ofcourse, 4 days of eating all that wonderful cruise food and drinking large amounts of alcohol probably did not help the situation any at all.

That is o.k.  We begin.  ONWARD!

I can do this.  I just have to set my little mind to it.