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MareLL 
11:48am, July 13, 2009
Well, I'm a little over one week shy of 1.5 years sober; things seem to be (key word - seem) falling into place. It looks like the last 14 months of my time spent working as a contractor has finally paid off; I got word yesterday that the approval for my official hire has gone through. Things with living situation have improved and although I'm about 15-20 pounds heavier than I'd like to be, my health seems to be okay. So, now what? Now that all of this 'good stuff' is happening, what now?
I'm not sure where this is coming from - could it be depression? fear? Maybe I'm just used to waiting for the bottom to fall out. Regardless, I'm still not entirely happy despite the progress that I've made (I refuse to really admit that I've really done anything major - I mean, I've just NOT drank for the last 18 months - no big deal). So, now I find myself asking these questions:
Now what?
What do I have to look forward to?
What do I now work on?
What new events/tasks do I take on?
Should I just relax?
Comments
You've just not drank in 18 months...That is a HUGE deal! I'm so proud of you, that is fantastic! What do you do? I'm not sure... Like I said in my journal entry I tend to try things and just see what happens!
I would suggest looking into volunteer opportunities... doing things that interest you! I also enjoy learning new things... Maybe go to the library and learn about things that you are curious about. Or learn a craft...Or find places close to home to hike at (that will help with the weight) Plant a garden...
What do you have to look forward too... Lots. I tend to keep putting one foot in front of the other and see what happens.
It is a wide world out there and one thing that I have learned is that there is so much living to do!
Love and blessings, Diane
PS If I kick back and relax, I tend to get depressed which is one of the reasons I try to stay busy
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