Journal

I still believe you are meant to be a mother. One way or another. Hang in there and be strong. Your a wonderful and caring person. If there is anything I can do let me know. I'll be thinking and praying for you.
Hugs Kim

I didn't know you came on here anymore! I'm sorry I missed this. Thanks for your support. It's a pretty miserable place to be, isn't it? I turned 35 in August and I can scarcely believe I'm that age with no family. Yes, multiple IVFs takes a big toll on you--emotionally, financially, physically--and it is hard to know when to call it on this journey. Even though I am not going to get on here much lately, I'm blogging away at www.lastchanceivf.blogspot.com (though I should probably rename the blog since we're no longer doing IVF). Hang in there.

I am so sorry. My sister and I were talking about that exact thing tonight. I told her it is wrong for people to assume that everyone either wants or is able to have children and should not ask that question. It makes all this so much harder. I hope the rest of your weekend goes better for you and that you got some good deals this morning.
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I'm sorry you had to go through that. I know I never ask that question. I had someone at work one night ask me about some friends of mine if they were going to have kids. I said I didn't know I don't ask people that question. Some people just cross the line sometimes and that is one way everybody does. Hang in there.

I know...the dreaded question, my dh always says, "we would love kids, just hasn't happened yet!" Then he changes the subject. I try to follow his lead. The holidays are so hard. It's like babies and children are the major subject...ugh I understand..

Oh I feel your pain. I guess because we blog *most* people know our situation, inside and out! But it still does come up and it always, always hurts. I wish things were going better for you. I hope the rest of the holiday season is smoother sailing--I'm always here to talk.

I hate that question as well. I've often thought that I should wear a bracelet or something that says something to the effect of "no, not yet" so everyone can see it and just save us both the trouble of the awkward questions. Hang in there!

I think that letting go and releasing the expectation is huge. I am not really there yet. I try but, I too, am a control freak. I COMPLETELY understand about the money - we are right there with you. I hope your birthday is a good one (despite all the other stuff)!

Happy early Birthday! I know it is frustrating and disappointing to know another year has passed with dealing with infertility and no success. November marks five years for us. I'm hoping that you won't give up and I think it is in gods plan for you to have children. One way or another. Hang in there.

I understand this feeling. Birthdays are very difficult and I think it is because you hear so much about that damn clock ticking. Well, don't let yourself listen to that! I just turned 38 and I am still trying to get our babies here. 34 is still a good number and you have more time to play with. Enjoy your birthday and know that your pregnancy will happen! :)

OH I totally hear you on this. Birthdays are hard. Spending so much money is hard. This journey is hard. I hope that you have a great celebration!

Happy early birthday! I will be turning 35 on Thursday and boy do i know how you are feeling! In fact, when i read your journal i felt that i was reading my own feelings! The only difference is all of our treatments except freezing embies and acupunture have been covered through my insurance so we feel blessed for that. I hope that all of your dreams come true for you at 34. Try to celebrate all the good in your life this year. That is what i am going to try and do. Hugs!

I am so sorry you are having the baby blues and birthday blues all in one big crapy feeling. I agree with everyone that God does have a plan for you and for all of us. Try to hang in there and try to have a happy birthday! I'll be thinking of you.