repost: lost and found
November 1, 2009 3:17pm
this a repost of a past entry from March 2009, but no one seemed to help and now i've lost my wife and got divorced. i guess this was just a …
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SoulDrifter
2:16pm, November 1, 2009
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About Me
SoulDrifter
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About Me
I am 28 years old. diagnost as bipolar 2 back in October 2007. i grew up in Brockton, MA for the majority of my life. i was raised around drugs, alcohol, and abuse. sometimes i am suprised i am alive.
I am 28 years old. diagnost as bipolar 2 back in October 2007. i grew up in Brockton, MA for the majority of my life. i was raised around drugs, alcohol, and abuse. sometimes i am suprised i am alive.
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Interests
i enjoy writing poetry, playing guitar (but i have not picked it up in months). i love my video games. i play rpgs like final fantasy, action/rpgs like the legend of zelda (i have a tattoo of the triforce on my left arm) and fable II is my current game.
i enjoy writing poetry, playing guitar (but i have not picked it up in months). i love my video games.
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Journal
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It's a simple silent sorrow
November 1, 2009 3:06pm
This makes me want to slip away into my great escapea place where I can truly beThe disese tries to drag me downthese obsticals tearing at my brain …
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This Is Not Good-bye
March 14, 2009 9:38pm
Today I have decided to make a major leap. On Tuesday March 17, 2009, i will be going to my therapist appointment. And after that i will be going to …
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Journal Entry for March 9, 2009
March 9, 2009 2:20pm
Hello
Hello to those that don't remember me, hello to those that don't really care.
I let you in my my home and let you smoke your bones. …
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Journal Entry for March 9, 2009
March 9, 2009 2:07pm
My Bleeding Heart
It breaks the heart when you feel unwanted, your mind twisted and exausted.
Giving your all just to be let down, but …
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
I am SoulDrifter, 28 years old. I have BP2 and suffer from suicidal ideation. I was diagnost in October 2007. In 2006 I was diagnost, but was not told by the docs or any of the staff. Anyway, I grew up in a house hold full of abuse (most was mental) and drugs, prostitutes, alleged child molestors, gang bangers (gang members). you name it, more than likely it or they were in my home. sometimes it is a wonder that I am alive along with my suicidal attempts.
Treatments
- Abilify Not Working
- I took this for about 2 months and it did not do a thing except for make me feel like a junkie. Jitters, restlessness, anger, irritablity, and droziness.
- Celexa Not Working
- I took this med for 4 months and made me do nothing but want to kill myself. it did nothing to stop or slow my racing thoughts and it just msde my suisidal thoughts worse.
- Depakote Not Working
- I took this for about 13 months. It helped some but not much. It made me gain so much weight in a small amount of time.
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- I am currently taking this for anxiety and to help me sleep. i have not had any bad or adverse effect from this med. so far so good.
- Tegretol Working / Worked
- I think I may have to up the dosage. I still have the racing and suicidal thoughts.
