Journal Entry for April 26, 2009
April 26, 2009 9:04pm
Today, I feel sad and depressed. I am so disgusted with myself. I just hate looking at myself. All the things that are happening to me is just a …
StepW
8:29pm, August 24, 2009
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About Me
StepW
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About Me
I have a Bachalors of Business Administration with a major in Computer Information Systems. I have a Masters of Business Administration with an emphasis in Management. I have issues with my self-esteem. I have been battling depression for about 9 years. I have an on and off problem with alcoholism. Also, I am a skin picker and I have OCD. I am determined to overcome all obstacles in my way.
I have a Bachalors of Business Administration with a major in Computer Information Systems. I have a Masters of Business Administration with an emphasis in Management. I have issues with my self-esteem. I have been battling depression for about 9 years. I have an on and off problem with alcoholism. Also, I am a skin picker and I have OCD. I am determined to overcome all obstacles in my way.
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Interests
Singing, listening to music, playing with my dog, styling hair, and spending time with my bestfriend.
Singing, listening to music, playing with my dog, styling hair, and spending time with my bestfriend.
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Journal Entry for April 21, 2009
April 21, 2009 12:19am
Right now, I am feeling depressed and worried. I have a lot on my mind and I am alone and scared in my thoughts. Now, I am worried about my …
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Journal Entry for April 18, 2009
April 18, 2009 1:46am
I am in a really bad place right now. All I want to do is hurt myself. My hands are bleeding but yet that isn't enough. I feel like bashing my …
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Journal Entry for April 16, 2009
April 16, 2009 8:23pm
I feel like drinking more and more each day. Somehow, I was happier when I was drinking. Today, I watched several cars pass by and wondered if I …
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Journal Entry for April 9, 2009
April 9, 2009 11:47pm
I have my good days and my bad days. Lately, I feel as if I am being followed by a giant rain cloud. I feel so alone. My current situation is one …
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Close Alcoholism
I have been dealing with alcoholism for about 8 years. I started drinking when my mother died. I was 15. I felt like the bottle was my only friend and it could take away all pain. In the past, I would make sacrifices to buy liquor. My drinking has decreased, but I still have a problem. It gets worse when I run out of meds (Paxil) for depression and anxiety. I drink to get high. When I am high, I don't have a care in the world. When I sober up, I feel ashamed and angry. I just want help.
Treatments
- AA Meetings Not Working
- I didn't give it a chance to work. I was in denial about my problem.
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- I have been able to stay sober in the past by going cold turkey, but I always seem to fail.
Close Depression
I have been dealing with depression ever since my mom and grandmother died. They died 11 months apart. I was 15. I just feel empty sometimes. I really fell apart in 2001 when my mom died. I am on Paxil for depression and anxiety. I have been on Paxil since 2006.
Treatments
- Paxil Working / Worked
- As far as depression goes, this medication works.I have developed problems with my memory.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
I pick at my skin all the time. I have dark spots on my face as a result. My cuticles are my favorite to pick. I use a knife for my cuticles. My arms have dark spots as well. I want to stop but I can't.
Treatments
- Celexa Too Soon to Tell
- My pdoc switched me from Paxil to Celexa.
- Paxil Not Working
- My skin picking got worse with Paxil.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- It allows me to open up about my feelings.
