Journal Entry for October 2, 2009
October 2, 2009 12:39am
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marigoldgirl
12:35am, October 2, 2009
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About Me
marigoldgirl
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About Me
I am a mother of a beautiful 4 year old boy, wife, the domesticated diva homemaker thing i thought i would never be:) Looking for people that experience panic disorder and agoraphobia as myself and can relate to the double edged sword of benzos and how in the long run they have made my anxiety so much worse and i am trying so hard to wean but then i get migraines. My family has so much trouble understanding. Looking for support.
I am a mother of a beautiful 4 year old boy, wife, the domesticated diva homemaker thing i thought i would never be:) Looking for people that experience panic disorder and agoraphobia as myself and can relate to the double edged sword of benzos and how in the long run they have made my anxiety so much worse and i am trying so hard to wean but then i get migraines. My family has so much trouble understanding. Looking for support.
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Interests
cooking, growing food, reading, being a mama, freshwater fishtanks, collecting beachglass, crocheting.
cooking, growing food, reading, being a mama, freshwater fishtanks, collecting beachglass, crocheting.
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Blessings be upon you and yours.
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Hey there! I sent you a message... hope everything's going well today. I really like your message about lamictal and counting sheep... so true! I am super-glad it is almost the weekend. See ya!
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I’m With You
Hi I answered your esophagitis post and took a look at your profile... we are in a lot of the same support groups and I just wanted to say hang in there. I've been through a lot of the same stuff and I know how difficult it is to work yourself off these medicines alone- without the support of family or doctors. I am here for you if you ever want to talk... we can vent about lamictal together :D
I hope you are doing well... take it one day at a time
rtannerj 
I’m With You
Have you found any releaf for your oesophagitus?
I’m With You
I am here for you if you ever want to talk. I have done the whole benzo trip - 30 plus years worth and then the other, difficult part too of weaning oneself off these personality altering class of drugs. Hugs to you xoxoxo
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Support Groups
Close Panic Attacks
Since i was a teenager i have battled anxiety (panic disorder) and depression. I have made many life changes such as absolutely no alcohol or smoking and cognitive therapy and positive thinking to name a few.
Treatments
- Ativan Somewhat Helpful
- still occasionally take during attack, habit forming, I am not addicted but dependent on ativan/xanax
- Klonopin Not Working
- Made me very anxious, which was a huge negative since thats why i tried it.
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- Patience Working / Worked
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- This can work wonders when combined with positive life changes too.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Was very helpful, when i started to wean off of ativan she kept trying to go into my past of why i was having p attacks when it was really b/c of wean off ativan. It didn't help then. Helped with depression alot though.
- Rescue Remedy Somewhat Helpful
- Tried before i was on meds (before i had a nervouse breakdown following alcohol poisining. It worked the few times i used it.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- Well, double edged sword, it works if i take enough, but then there are side effects, if i take just enough to function then i still have the anxiety + my body is dependent on it...so it is hellish when i try to stop (for a few days). I have been cutting down fo awhile now. It is my helper though for the past 1 1/2 yrs.
Close Migraine Headaches
Began with 2 episodes of anterior uevetis in 2003 and i get these headaches that are brought on by bright light, they have been getting worse over the years. I feel soooo tired for like a week and sad and fatigued. Does anyone have migraines mixed with episodes of anterior uevetis?
Treatments
Open Anxiety
same as my panic disorder story...whoop-di-doo :)
Treatments
- Ativan Somewhat Helpful
- worked well until i tried to wean off a year ago and went into the worse and constant panic attacks in my life.
- Breathing Exercises Working / Worked
- this really does help, after a month i always stop doing it on a daily basis,i wish i could stick to this, but i do try to do deep breathing/yoga once a week and breathwork when i am out and about (ex. in car b/c high anxiety in cars).
- Breathwork Somewhat Helpful
- i need to do this more:)
- Klonopin Not Working
- Made me feel even more anxious, did not like it.
- Lexapro Somewhat Helpful
- helped in beginning but made me hypomanic after awhile. and more anxious (after a year). I am off now.
- Meditation Working / Worked
- helpful:)
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- indeed it can work:)
- Xanax Working / Worked
- it what has worked for me but i am dependent on it which the original dr told me wouldn't happen b/c i was scared to death of that..EXTREMELY frustrating after 2 years of being dependent on a benzo.
Open TMJ
i have tmj.
Open Insomnia
well, have struggled for many years, especially during anxiety and or depression episodes. Lately, insomnia started onvernight as i have stopped lamictal and had environmental stressors big time.
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- a few years ago
- Counting Sheep Working / Worked
- kinda
- Xanax Working / Worked
- kinda
Open GERD & Heartburn
Treatments
- Antacids Working / Worked
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- Nexium Not Working
- made my stomach walls feel like they were sticking together, so no.
- Prilosec Working / Worked
- Raising Bed Position Working / Worked
Open Gastritis
marigoldgirl hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Gallstones
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