bigbeagle43's Journal

so, as i posted on the discussion board, i am very angry right now.  had a fight with the hubby as i was doing the dishes last night, cuz i was leaning against the sink and not standing straight.  i was leaning toward my strong side, so when he made a comment to correct me, i snapped back at him that i was trying.

so he got mad at me cuz he felt that i am not trying hard enough to get better.

that really pissed me off.  how can he say or even think something so hurtful??

does he think i enjoy being dependent on him and that i like living my life like this?  that i wouldn't give anything to be back to my old self, or as close as i can to it?

he still doesn't understand, and i don't think he ever will.  i want to talk to him about it more, but i'm afraid that it'll just be the same old same old and nothing new would come of it.  that i will just get myself all worked up again.  just like i am now.

sheesh...