Miss Elaine's Journal

I have no clue why i am crying. Okay fine i do.

I dont even know why i am trying.

I dont need anyone

i dont need anyone, i keep telling myself.

I am so lonelly. So cold.

So tired and cold.

Why do i feel the need to be wanted.

Why do i have a lust in my heart that wished to be filled with love.

 And ya know if anyone were to really ask me how i felt right now. i would have no clue waht to tell them. i feel ugh lots of stupid emo emotions lol yeah well. 

It HAPPENS

Ugh i dont need to get my mom in the middle of this. She was trying to dish the 411 out of Erik for me. Well Dissapointment here icome!

I dont need a boyfriend. why am i so upset. i CANT HAVE A BOYFRIEND RIGHT NOW get over yourself you self  pitty stupid child! grow up and be alone!

adults have  to be alone in their lives!!!! get used to it. you are going to be alone for the rest of your life!!! get over it!!!!

Eff. 

stop crying

its not worth it

no one is

stop it!

stop being lonely. stop whining and crying all of the time. just stop it.

i hate you.

i hate you so much.

you are worthless. i hate you!!!!!

I HATE YOU COURTNEY ELAINE!!!!!