Miss Elaine's Journal

Well. that was the shortest relationship i have Ever had. And yet one of my favorites. Goodness, this is so stupid. I hate him. I hate his parents. I hate boys. I hate everyone. and I digress as I feel better now. I dunno, they guy makes me so happy. I really like him a lot. Even if my best friend doesnt lol He is not the same guy i remember back in school. He is normal, and attractive, and so down to earth. I think i have rambled enough about him in the previous post lol But I was so upset. I was in the middle of baking my very first batch of homemade donuts. I went outside around to the back of the house and cried and cried until finaly. I heard my mom yelling for me. Then I wiped my tears and told her I was just playing with my new puppy. I didnt want her to see me upset. She would have been so mad at Kris, and he didnt even dump me on purpose. But his parents are even worse than Jacklyns lol So! Yeah. Well I have him in an IM right now. And im not LOling any ( wow that sounded bad) Just to kinda give the hint that I am not a happy camper. I am joking around and being nice. But you know. I just want him to know that I do stil like him. And I am stil very much heart broken. Its cold in this room right now. But, my heart is colder. hahahaha Emo moment. hahaha had to say it. so i wonder if he will call me in the morning... i doubt it. Sigh... you know what. Instead of trying to put a bandaid on a bleeding heart... i should just drop everything, and freeze my heart for a while. That seemed to be working for a while. Oh well. ive got a CL in my throat. ( thats Courteneese for Crying Lump) goodness... im just gonna stay up all night playing my fav online game with my brother.