MissMagic's Journal

My son is making me very sad. He is super smart, but has no common sense whatsoever. He's recently become sexually active with a girl I don't like much. He doesn't, and never has, tried to do well in school. All he wants is to play his stupid guitar. He got a letter from a college yesterday ... I got all excited about it because I thought it was an acceptance letter, but it turned out to be a rejection into their honors program. He could reach the stars if he wanted to. I feel like I've been pulling this heavy weight on a rope all these years... maybe I should let go of the rope? I so want for him all the best, but he just doesn't seem to care. I can't do it all for him. I'm so worn out and tired. He's leaving for college in about 7 months. I will miss him, but I'm also afraid for the bad choices he will make..............'