kthompson's Journal

I never realized how emotions can get sooo out of control. Lately I have found myself soooo angry that I thought I would bust and I am sure my husband wanted to strangle me. Anger is not an emotion I am comfortable with. While intellectually I know there are worse things out there I have been struggling with my health issues. I hate relying on others, and having to scale back my activities because the pain is through the roof, and my ability to do some of the activities are fading away because physically I just can't do them. On any given day I can experience more emotions and it makes PMS or menapauseal women look normal. I find my patience with myself is fading and I get angry when I can't feel a cup in my hands and I drop it and it breaks or my legs give out and I wind up on my ass.(weebles are suppose to wobble not fall down!) After PT I can barely move, and I find my tolerance for others BS also is fading. I've been told that when we face physical illness and loss of certain functions we go through anger, grief, depression and eventually acceptance. My thoughts: enough already with the emotions lets skip to acceptance and move on. I know we are never given more than we can bare and God can turn adversity to a blessing but gosh God enough already! Job I am not!