I'm older than I want to be and fatter than I ought to be. I'm either too short or too fat. Havent figured that out yet. I like people and have a great sense of humor. But I spend endless hour alone. I have grown children that are very self efficient. They live near by, yet I rarely see them. My hubby is a truck driver. Gone is what he is. I am sick and tired of living out the days by my self. Literly. It makes me ill. Depression is the only company I have. Without it I would be nothing. I go for days seeing no one and the only place I go is to buy more food.
I'm older than I want to be and fatter than I ought to be. I'm either too short or too fat. Havent figured that out yet. I like people and have a great sense of humor. But I spend endless hour alone. I have grown children that are very self efficient. They live near by, yet I rarely see them. My hubby is a truck driver. Gone is what he is. I am sick and tired of living out the days by my self. Literly. It makes me ill. Depression is the only company I have. Without it I would be nothing. I go for
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March 26, 2009 3:59am
The rain hitting the old trash can out side has a hypnotic sound. Not like water dripping. More like a wind chime. I curl up under the covers as the …
March 25, 2009 2:00am
The air is cool with a slight little breeze. The darkness closes in around me like a blanket. In the other room I can here the little fan …
March 13, 2009 1:10am
I knew sooner or later time would play its toll on me and I would age and start having illnesses like the rest of the world. The inter parts are …
March 10, 2009 12:30am
We think we are so in control of our lives. When really we just play the parts and the rest just happens. I didn't plan on any of these illnesses …
March 4, 2009 11:59am
This is awful. I got so many things wrong with me they should of wrote reject on my bottom and threw me in the trash when I was born. Good grief. …
I really think I was depressed while Mama was carrying me. I have taken something for depression since I was a child. They thought I was just a hard headed kid. They didn't reconize it as depression back then. They have tried several meds. before finally getting it right. That has taken years. I was a good mother but I think I could of been better had someone took me seriously back then. I see it now in my grown children. But they dont take it serious for themselves.
I have asthma and need to learn about it as much as possible. I think speaking with people who have it is better than talking with a Dr. who don't. I haven't been told "What kind of Asthma" I have.
I have Oa and Ra and am in pain most all of the time. I have just come to the point of it effecting me every day all day and at night. I have found that the synvisc works the best for me.
Been there and done that.
I am 150 pounds over weight. I could have the band type surgery done. I'm scared. If you had it to do over would you have it. Or would you keep trying by dieting yourself?
I was told I had diabetes and hypoglycemia. My blood sugar goes from 40-50-when I don't eat to 300 when I do eat. I need help not only to understanding this illness but how to treat it.
I hadn't thought of a group for the feelings I have when I don't want to leave my house. Sometimes it's the room I'm in. I have panic attacks at night. I wake up so frightened I can't move. My husband use to talk me through it now he sleeps through it. Seems the problem is getting worse instead of better. It's sometimes crazy stuff. Like I look at the wrinkles in my hands and think. This is scary. I don't know maybe this is not the right group to be in. What do you think.
Hi, I have known I have Sjogren's for about 2 years now. I'm sure I have had it a lot longer. I have dry eyes (sometimes excessive watering) dry mouth & etc...I have a mouth sore all the time. I know very little about the syndrome. I have a positive ANA. What ever that mean. I feel so sick all the time. I have type 2 diabetes, osteoarthritis, asthma & depression. I don't know whether I'm coming or going. I have seen a rheumatologist
Just found out I have herpes. Brain is numb.
I feel so alone all the time. If I died I dont think no one would know until the smell got bad.
I have been married for 16 years and 10 without sex. I love my husband and I know he loves me. But knowing I will never be held or kissed passionately again is sometimes hard to live with. (or without)
