March 16, 2009 12:50pm
My husband's back to work, and I'm still laid off. Fine by me; I got the house to myself for a few hours a day. Nice peaceful change of pace. …
February 27, 2009 5:30pm
I had the absolute WORST day EVER!!!
It started off with me waking up on my mother's tiny sofa. Why was I there? Because my husband called …
February 27, 2009 5:13pm
It all started less for the pull ups but more for my back pain. My right shoulder is significantly lacking muscle tissue and it droops due to my …
A hug for a friend in crisis. I hope it gets better.
Hope things are okay tonight. Take Care :0)
you are very "in tune" with the feelings of happiness for them and not feeling the pains of what is he doing next..big step.... takes time and i too am working on it ...
Your not a wuss, your just in a cycle and beaten down. The problem is that we buy into what they tell us and that it's our fault, but it's not. Just work on building yourself up and learning as much as you can about abuse. Knowledge is power. Counseling would be a great idea too...It took me years to get it, with a lot of therapy and work. You'll get there in your own due time... Big (((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))
It's taken a long time for me to get where I am mentally today. Some counseling and a lot of hours on DS goes a long way. If you need anything..I've got lots of inspiration for you.
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I was hit hard with panic attacks living with my ex so I started taking Xanax. 7 stowaway roommates kept stealing them, making everything worse. The anxiety got a little better when I left, or so I thought, because I took up drinking pretty hard. When I married an alcoholic, the drinking clearly had to stop. I'm still off Xanax, but take Paxil now. I can't talk to anyone I have ever known, as they are all heroin addicts. Finally think I can attempt quitting smoking.
I had strep throat that was misdiagnosed as 'nothing' when I was 15, and it turned into juvenile rheumatory arthritis. Today, I have the adult kind. my right index finger is a full ring size bigger than the other index. I have it all in my spine, knees, and hands. It is very painful, especially in my back. my back also has scoliosis, so I don't even know which one has flared up half the time. I started taking nambumetome, 1000mg twice a day, and my ring size is starting to return to normal.
I was laid off, trying desperately to stay sober with my alcoholic addict husband, with nothing to do and running out of meds money. I hope this site helps.
I started when I was 14 because I didn't understand what being addicted to something actually meant, and thought I was proving a point or something about starting smoking, getting addicted, then quit, to my smoker friends, who let me, and now it isn't 2 yrs later, it is 12!! I have to quit smoking for my new job, and I'm worried I will hit menopause before I quit smoking long enough to have babies. I quit for a month every other year, and sometimes for sprinkled weeks here and there
Every time I try to support my friends quitting heroin, I end up helping them get it. When my husband is having a hard time, I just help him out no matter what is going on; so he ends up being 'sick' for MONTHS just to let me take care of him, I think. I don't think I'm getting anywhere with anyone. But I never look at my own problems and my own life as something important, only helping the people around me. And they hate me for it! It's a problem. I didn't know how to fix it.
I was misdiagnosed with 'sway back' when I was 6, but it was scoliosis. Went to a chiropractor most of my life, and when I was 15 I got RA, which didn't help the situation. I couldn't sleep it hurt so bad when I was 10 until I was 14 and started drinking. Drinking helps, but now I have a bad liver and had to stop. Some days are worse than others.
I got strep throat when I was 15, and they told me I was fine at the doctor's. It turned into juvenile RA, and later developed into RA.
They thought I had sway back when I was 6. The pain in my shoulders were always really unbearable; I couldn't ever sleep! Finally, when I was 11, they figured out I had some rare scoliosis in my neck, and twists down my spine, and a crooked pelvis, and a short left leg by 3/4 of an inch. I almost had a pole put into my back when I was 12 and complaining about pain, for what they said would be cosmetic reasons.I was scared so I said no. I still suffer from the pain.
I try. I doubt I'm normal enough to have one. I thought I did, but that was because I didn't care about myself enough to include myself. Now that I want things for myself, those types of people are out of the question. I tried to have relationships with "normal" people, but wow are they not interested! I don't get it.
My parents fought until 4am every single day of my life. I had forced insomnia, if that's a real thing. They were always emotionally unavailable, and I never could get good life advice from them. The result of this was that my brother and I ended up close friends. Now I am married to an emotionally disturbed man. The way we fight is similar to how I grew up and I fear my children will go through what I did.
All my friends turned into junkies overnight, and I "clipped" a bit. Apparently, I wasn't careful enough, and, even though I never got addicted, I tested positive for HepC type 1A. The rest of the group have types 1A and 3C (and god knows what else). I felt pretty cheated, although it was because of my own decisions. It just didn't seem fair to me at first. I tried doing interferon, but I didn't have any real support, the pain was unbearable, and when I became suicidal I decided to stop.
My brother and I were best of friends once. We had a lovely group of friends and were happy in high school. Then one day, about 10 yrs ago, he nearly died in a car accident, but lost some skull and needed brain surgery to get out the broken pieces. He hasn't been the same since. He uses heroin a lot now, and doesn't want to stop. It kills me to see him this way. I just want my brother back. Also, I married an alcoholic heroin addict coke addict meth head... but in recovery. He is sober 2 yrs
My brother has been going to prison off and on since it was DYS and he was 11. He's pretty much a confirmed heroin addict and career criminal. I miss him. I always visit and help him and support him but it doesn't help. My husband has a very similar past, maybe even worse, but he's cleaned up his act. Why can't my brother?
I am so interested in nutrition! I am currently into organic food. Turns out, you get a significant increase in nutrient and a significant decrease in toxins. I previously thought it was a bunch of BS, but a doctor found results on it being worth the trouble. i also like to cook; whole grains with extra veggies of course!
not ready to...
I don't have a car. I'm collecting unemployment. Yesterday a divorce was decided. I am HOURS away from friends and family. And, yeah, no savings
ugh if i end up accidentally going out with friends the first day of my pms mood swings, I, uh, well, have a few less friends the next day! Though I could get some advice from other people who suffer from it.
