I owe you nothing, nothing at all cruel world!!! :-)
February 28, 2009 1:15am
Ok...
Well kinda drunk... yes, intoxicated as of now... in a strangely enlightening mood mabie...
Suprisingly, er, upbeat and sorta …
rendeverance 
7:34am, April 3, 2009
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About Me
rendeverance
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About Me
I'm a geniune guy who trys HARD in life... But whenever something good happens, within 24 hours something equally bad or worse WILL happen... I have just came out of a 5 year relationship. I have spent the last 3 and half years of being accused of being emotionless and causing all of the arguments and justifying the behaviour of my ex. As it turns out, people from, the outside that I will now listen to, have seen I was controlled, brain washed, emotionally and physically abused. She admitted to trying to kill be before christmas, and its been so hard on and off since to draw the line. I cannot be left alone by her... I have two daughters, one who is 3, the other is just a couple of months old and I havd felt I had to move some 500 miles away which hurts like hell. Other info:- I'm ex air force, I am dx with aspergers syndrome, I've JUST completed a mathematics degree at university managing first class honours despite all the crapp thats been going on, and I am now training to be a teacher. I am praying that I can find someone that will understand and appeciate me one day, who will allow me to dedicate myself to them.
I'm a geniune guy who trys HARD in life... But whenever something good happens, within 24 hours something equally bad or worse WILL happen... I have just came out of a 5 year relationship. I have spent the last 3 and half years of being accused of being emotionless and causing all of the arguments and justifying the behaviour of my ex. As it turns out, people from, the outside that I will now listen to, have seen I was controlled, brain washed, emotionally and physically abused. She admitted to trying
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Interests
LOTS! lol Cars, planes, computers, remote control models, making things, outdoor pursuits, canoeing, music, driving, travelling (not that ive done much). Seeing the friends that I have... and so on...
LOTS! lol Cars, planes, computers, remote control models, making things, outdoor pursuits, canoeing,
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Why...
February 27, 2009 1:03am
Why, I wonder...
Most that I recieve in this life is and may be bad or wrong... I learn to accept it....
However...
WHY, WHY is it …
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How are u my dearie?I hope u have some rest,since we last spoke.I miss our late night chats.many hugs
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May u get some overdue rest dearie.Many hugs and I will be praying for u.
Moment of Peace
I have been going through stresses but I saw your hug and thus want to hug back! Indeed I l;ove certain quotes, that one seemed quite apt!
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We're going to have to get you a map for your brain ;)
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are you up or did you fall asleep with your comp on?
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Support Groups
Close Autism / Autism Spectrum
I'm a late dx... was dx'd nearly a year ago...
Close Physical & Emotional Abuse
Have experianced this, both emotional and physical and am blamed by that person and their family of causing emotional abuse in that same relationship... Other people disagree... all I know is pain!
Open ADHD / ADD
I believe ADD is a comorbid I may suffer from with my officially recognised aspergers.
Open Depression
Depression is VERY well known to me... from both the outside, and personally experianced...
Open Insomnia
My max is 101 hours awake with 5 hours (hour here hour there) sleep! Tried Trazodone - gave me anxiety attacks and managed to get somewhat erratic 3-5 hours sleep a day, but couldent stay on it. Also tried Zopiclone - failed to work - I stayed up longer and found out the hard way what it does with alcohol!
Treatments
- Trazodone Not Working
- Failed - gave me anxiety attacks and managed to get somewhat erratic 3-5 hours sleep a day, but couldent stay on it.
Open Asperger Syndrome
I am an officially dx'd aspie
Open Prescription Drug Abuse
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Open Homelessness
I have found myself homeless before, if you want to know more about the circumstances, feel free to ask...
