LillyLaSombra's Journal

My mother has been asking me to come to Easter dinner at her house today, and I was thinking about doing it, but I suddenly got filled full of rage about the past and how my family has treated me, and my husband and I decided it is best for me and the kids and everyone if we didnt' go. My mother will be mad, but oh well. I just can't handle the drama and how they mistreat my husband and other children. My sister would have been there too, and I am EXTREMELY angry with her right now. If I could handle it, I would go just to cuss them all out and tell them exactly how I feel, but I would be the one leaving upset, and they would just bad mouth me and it's like flogging a dead horse with them.

Instead my children and I dyed boiled eggs and had a really good time. I think we had a better time at home than if we had gone anywhere, so I'm glad I didn't go. I'm avoiding my mom's calls today, and I just left a message on her machine that I couldnt' make it. I will deal with that conversation tomorrow when I'm not feeling like ranting at her so much. I will also get to talk to my counselor tomorrow, so that will help.

I think my children had a blast today with the eggs and they got to play with thier friends outside. I'm glad today went well for them, even if I did have to take medicine to get through it. I would have needed a horse tranquilizer to deal with my mother and sister, so I think we did the right thing staying home.

Alice