angel of sorrow's Journal

I'm in a bad mood today because I have so many things due at school. My grandfather is in the hospital, and I am really close to him. Just little things seemed to tick me off today. I felt anxious, depressed, and angry. For what reasons, I do not know. I still think a lot about suicide, but everything is locked away. I'm trying to be cheerful this christmas season, but it's really hard to do. I don't want to disappoint my family at christmas and winter solstice. Though they really don't care about the wiccan holiday. I feel like cutting a lot. IT helps calm me down when I am stressed. Happy st. Nickolis day everyone