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angel of sorrow 
I feel so numb and dead inside. IT's as if I'm fighting an inner war with myself, and somehow I keep losing. A few days a ago I started cutting myself again-27 cuts. Today I think I lost my friends because we all got into a fight, I dont know what the fight was about even. I just want to erase everything. I feel like I'll never get over this depression. I want things to be normal again. I feel like I don't have any control over my mind. I feel like it's not mine. I feel like a puppet, my actions aren't mine anymore, and everything is falling apart again. I don't know who to trust or turn to. SOmetimes I think suicide is the only choice left.
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Angel I thought I responded to your post but, it's not showing up. Please hang in there...support is on the way :-)
jenickki
When the darkest cloud hangs over us, there is always a moment when the sun shines through, even if just for a short moment. Sometimes it takes hours, days, weeks or even months - but eventually the sun comes. Please hang in there until you see the sun again. I wish you strength, hope and peace.
Sadmomoftwins
When the darkest cloud hangs over us, there is always a moment when the sun shines through, even if just for a short moment. Sometimes it takes hours, days, weeks or even months - but eventually the sun comes. Please hang in there until you see the sun again. I wish you strength, hope and peace.
Sadmomoftwins
Hey, I saw your discussion question, "Does anyone care?"
You better believe it!!! People do care. People in this community care, especially because we all know the nature of the darkness you're dealing with. Please, please, please hold on. Just get through today, Then tomorrow, then the day after that...one day at a time. I know that thinking of living the rest of your life in depression is a crushing weight...please, try not to burden yourself today, with the cares of tomorrow. Just get thru today. Tomorrow, a ray of light may pierce that darkness. Praying 4 U.
R27
Angel! Where are you? It's 12/01/2006 and no comments have been put back on here.....let us know you are okay!!
jenickki
cindyr
I do not know you but I want to help you, and I care what happens to you because you are a child of God and your life is worth alot. Please seek what ever help you can, there is a light at the end of the tunnel even when all you can see right now is darkness.
cindyr
HI, ANGEL. THIS IS JON,"LAD" AGAIN. I AM SO GLAD THAT YOU'RE OK! DID YOU READ MY POST? I HOPE IT HELPED YOU IN SOME WEIRD WAY. I HAVE A POEM CALLED "DON'T QUIT" BY AN ANONYMOUS PERSON, AND PART OF IT SAYS, "FAILURE IS SUCCESS TURNED INSIDE OUT...". REMEMBER THIS: THERE IS NO ONE THAT HAS THE RIGHT TO DO TO YOU--OR ANYBODY--WHAT THEY HAVE DONE TO YOU: THAT IS A VIOLATION OF YOU, HUMAN DECENCY, AND HUMAN RIGHTS! IT IS MY SINCERE DESIRE TO HELP YOU IN ANYWAY I CAN THAT IS LEGAL AND WITHOUT ANY DIRE CONSEQUENCES.
I SEE THAT YOU'VE HAD A LOT OF RESPONSES...NOW DO YOU KNOW THAT PEOPLE DO CARE? THAT THERE IS SOME HUMAN DECENCY IN THE WORLD? THERE IS LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL! YOU JUST HAVE TO HANG IN THERE. I'VE A PERSONAL MOTTO: "NEVER SURRENDER! I AM A SURVIVOR!"
PLEASE,PLEASE,PLEASE LET US IN THE COMMUNITY KNOW HOW YOU ARE,OK?
--JON
lad