Journal

Last year a 14 year old boy named Travis who grew up with my children was killed in a car accident. His mother is a drunkin pile of shit and he was being taken care of by his older brother Bryant. Bryant was devastated by the loss of his brother. Night before last he ran in to a tree about a mile from where his little brother died. He died on impact. He was 23 fucking years old!

I remember meeting this beautiful young man at his brothers funeral and thinking what a great kid he was and how he overcame his family. His mother was wasted and carrying on and this little man was like his devastated father. I told him that even though he didn't know me that if he ever needed anything to please call me and we donated to his brothers funeral. I just wanted to keep these kids. I could so relate with there family situation and to watch them both die is almost more than I can stand.

Why do women like that have children? Why did my mother have children that she gave to her parents? How can they not care how much they fuck us up?

RIP Bryant and Travis. Brothers together again.

So I have been on the bio hrt for about 9 days and I'm noticing some changes. I've gotten my appetite back and my mood is better. I've also stopped sweating as much at night and I'm sleeping a little better.

I haven't felt faint like I did with the regular hrt but I have had some cramps. Who thought I would miss those?

My husband and I were complaining about life, the economy and our shitty attitudes and he tells me it could be worse and I could still get pregnant. I told him that it was unlikely that my ovaries ( God rest there soul) would spring back to life just to spite him but if I get any mystery periods with my new hormones that he will be the first to know. Dork.

I can't say that I'm back to normal and I think menopause will leave me forever changed but I do feel better and I'm excited about it.

My cost is about $100 a month and that is really not bad considering I've heard it was much more.