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rosebaby 
11:31pm, October 6, 2009
Hi my fabulous friends.
I have just got a new computer and am now back on DS.
I have just had a really deep and meaningfull talk with my husband and i am really glad he understands.
I have just addmited that i have a massive food eating addiction.
i sneak food, and it is getting really bad. The other night i snuck a peanut butter sandwich to bed and whenever someone isnt looking i eat something. whenever i go out lets say i have to put 50 dollars petrol in the car i will put in 48 dollars in so i can buy a chocolate bar without being caught.
same when i do groceries.
When i go out and i have a couple of coins i go to the shop and buy coke or chocolate bar and sometime not even one sometimes 2.
im hurting so bad and dont know where to start.
or how.
Thanks for your time and reading this.
Comments
Oh sweetie, I hear you and am exactly the same way. I think for those of us with a real food addiction, it is like any other severe addiction and we need to get help and also to handle it minute by minute (it's not just a day by day thing). I think you are going to benefit tremendously from talking with someone (more than your husband, although that is great), from journal writing your foods (honestly!! everything - it's the "promptly admit it" step in the 12 step program), from people keeping you accountable, and from having a food and exercise plan. There are people who are experts in helping with this addiction and who know the game plan needed to overcome the initial withdrawals, the emotional aspect, and the long term success method.
I am online a lot, and you can instant message me anytime you need a boost to get through a tough craving.
I'm not one to pussy foot around and say "it's OK, tomorrow's another day, you'll get this", but I am one to dive to the heart of the issue. You need to ask yourself "WHAT is it I really WANT?" because it is not that chocolate bar or sandwich. You need to set up your household for success and have everyone in the house on board with that. You have taken the step of admitting the addiction. I have a massive food addiction too. I can EASILY eat 10,000 calories per day. I cry sometimes when I watch "The Biggest Loser" because I am THERE where those people are.
Reach out to others (good job doing that here), face this as it truly is - an addiction. Do not let yourself off easy. You deserve health and life. You are worth it.
Big huge hugs!!! xoxo
gettingbacktoLaura
:) the first step is in admitting a problem. Now you go from here. Try to take it slow. Don't expect miracles. Changing lifestyle habits takes time. Have you considered therapy?
SockFuzz
I did the same thing. The main problem for me is that I don't sneak that anymore. I just do it and don't really care what people think about it. That has made it much worse for me because I got to the point where I don't care at all about my health or what i look like. Even though I do really care. I think it's great that you talked to your husband and that he understands. Is he going to help and be supportive?
caruTH
I do the same thing sometimes. If I go to the store alone I get a candy bar and scarf it down before I get home (we live .5 miles from the store) and hide the wrapper before I go in. Today I had a big bowl of ice cream when my son was down for a rest, my biggest fear he would get up and I would have to share with him... I feel your pain and shame. I am glad that you are reaching out. I need to get myself under control. I am here for you. I will be out of town till Sunday but, I will check up on you then. May God give you strength.
Tonya
Idahomom
I thought that I was the only one that did that. I find myself at the grocery store and even though I am not hungry, I want to treat myself because I HAD to do the shopping. I remember from a long time ago that I used to sneak a bag of chips from the closest that my mom kept them in and when she asked where they were, I didn't know.
Sarah, I am here for you and maybe we can lick this together. I know that we are in different time/day zones, but as much as we can, try to support each other. I have often thought about getting some professional help with my eating...maybe you have given me the incentive to do that. Hugs and prayers for you and your husband. I know that he will be there for you through this.
Doris104
You have taken the first and probably most difficult step...admitting your food addiction, your sneaking food! And look NO ONE has turned you away! We all love you and support you! My prayer is that you find the strength, I know it is there.
JoyceMarilyn
I will pray for you that you find the strendth to fight this demon,I feel for you I once was there .Buying a candy bar and eating it before I got home...hang in there we all love you &support you.Hugs Birgit
Cutey
I'm so glad you messaged me to read this! Thank you! I used to do this too when my kids were little. I felt I had to hide things from them so that I felt I wouldn't lose out on getting some. But in reality I was hurting me and them from not sharing and bonding. But also hordding it all which made it unhealthy for me physically and mentally. Having some of something you really want takes the craving away I've learned but hiding it you end up eating more that you really need. Which then you end up paying the price of gaining weight. Which then brings feeling bad about yourself. Then the struggle to get it off. Which can bring another emotional eating. Which then you start the cycle of feeling bad and struggle to get it off and eating again all over and over. Lord God, I know food is important to our means of existing and health. Please send each of us 1000 angels just to help us with our eating/weight loss or weight gain (for those who are the other extreme) so that we can get it undercontrol and be health for you O Lord God and for ourselves so we can enjoy life with our families and friends. I thank you for being a loving and understanding God and taking good care of our needs. I ask this all in Jesus' Holy and Precious name Amen.
ANGELKITTEN
You've taken such great steps forward. I hope you feel really proud of yourself!
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emsinmanchester
Well done for admitting you have a problem!
I think you should check out www.paulmckenna.com..he helps you to learn about eating consciously..because as you so rightly said..diets don't work..not only that but he has some great techniques for bingeing and food cravings!
Good luck and if you want to know anymore,give me a shout!
Hugs
Sharon xoxo
AshantiRose
I know exactly what you're going through. I did the same thing for years. Sometimes I still catch myself doing it. In my own life, I think it has to do with control issues. You are SUPPOSED to do one thing, but by sneaking some of the money and buying sancks, you feel as if you are controling this small piece of your life. What I had to do is to get honest with myself and realize that overeating is harming me and I deserve to be loved and taken care of, even if I'm the only one who does it. I had to get rid of all the excuses (I deserve this treat, etc). Reward yourself with other things like a long bubble bath. Practice taking control of your life in other areas, and the eating will get better. It's a tough road, but you can do it. Good luck and God bless.
missina