afanador's Journal

I am so furious.  my husband got the keys to the house from a "friend" who had a spare set and came into the basement and took several of his things.  I did not want to give them to him because he owes me money...

I am so furious because when he came to take things, he knocked at my door after he took the stuff, and all he did was shout at me telling me yet that when we were together I still did not give him enough, after all the things I did for him, and that after he left, I still did not give him enough.

he is obviously still dealing with his chronic depression.  I had not seen him in about four months and he looks horrible, I hardly recognized him, his face is totally distorted from either hate or his mental state.  my girlfriend who was visiting was looking out the window (my hubbie and I were on the porch), and she was able to witness his behaviours, how I would stay calm and talk quietly to him, and how he went on shouting at me a lot of nonsense, nonstop in spite of the fact that it was daylight and all the neighbors could see his behaviors.

I again told him that his behaviours past and present were pointing to the fact that he needed to go to the doctor.  I am looking completely different from when we were together, have my act togegther and am happy and at peace.  He said he only took the bike, but when I went to check afterward, he took a lot more stuff.  so obviously, his friend was there with the car to take all the things. 

when he was about to leave he told me I should go to the doctor and as I was saying that I was happy and tranquil that he started to leave.  i asked him why he was leaving with my sentence have completed and he said he needed to go to work.  he also said that we needed to talk.  I told him to call me and we could talk and that he could pay for dinner:  i am so proud of how cool, happy, elelgant, and peacefully I acted. 

nevertheless, I am furious because he took a lot of things.  I am furious at my friend who gave him the keys without my permission and knowing that my husband had even been physically abusive with me.  my husband gave me the keys but I do not know if he made copies.  so now I am having to change the locks. 

I am going to go to the police to get a no trespassing order on him and his friend.  I hope I can get it.

i am so agitated that I cannot sleep. I have been awake since 3 am.  what to go to sleep but can't.

i cannot permit that he continue to think that he can continue to abuse me.