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BinkyH 
What A Grieving Mother Really Thinks
Hello old friend,
Oh yes you know
No, no please
Don't look away
And change the subject
It's ok.
You see at first I couldn't feel,
It took so long, but now it's real.
I hurt so much inside you see
I need to talk,
Come sit with me?
You see, I was numb for so very long,
And people said, "My, she is so strong".
They didn't know I couldn't feel,
My broken heart made it all unreal.
But then one day, as I awoke
I clutched my chest, began to choke,
Such a scream, such a wail,
Broke from me.
My child! My child!
The horror of reality.
But everyone has moved on, you see,
everyone except for me.
Now, when I need friends most of all,
between us there now stands a wall.
My pain is more than they can bear,
When I mention my child,
I see their blank stare.
"But I thought you were over it",
Their eyes seems to say--
No, no, I can't listen to this, not today.
So I smile and pretend, and say, "Oh, I'm okay".
But inside I am crying, as I turn away.
And so my old friend, I shall paint on a smile,
As I have from the start,
You never knowing all the while,
All I've just said to you in my heart.
Kelly Cummings
9-8-02
Comments
I love it.. it is me right now thank you so much for sharing my sister.. you always know just want to write even if it is someones elses words.. love you..
munrogirl
Thanks friend...
biowoman
S-O very true. Thanks for sharing!
tomtom
Very...like me.
ColleenF
Thank you, my friend...
annsullivan
Very, very familiar.....
JudyWI
Thanks for sharing....that really covers it.
KimRW
AMEN!
Bailey
Exactly! I am so tired of people thinking I should be over it or that I will EVER get over it. You NEVER get over losing a child. A part of your heart has been ripped out and there is NOTHING left in this world that can fix it. love, lana
LanaG
totally true, i am going to share this with my hospice bereavement parents group if you dont mind, thank you
misshimsooo
That says it. I'm at that point right now. I just feel like everyone has forgotten what we've been through, and they all feel like it's over. I feel like they expect me to be my normal self. I'm not and never will be. None of us will.
JulsMarie
Period. The end.
djlchill
Thanks, it's me to a tee. Love and hugs cathy
RockstarsMom