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hunterjumper 
3:52pm, October 29, 2009
i am done. i feel nothing anymore and have no purpose. life is just there and i really don't care. so on saturday exactly 12:00 i will see the light to a more peaceful place.
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Be a happy person
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it has been a long time i have been on. not much to tell
UPDATED GOALS
Be a happy person
Progress 40%
Encouragements: 2
Add your supporti want to wrie and i want to talk but i can't and don't know what to say
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You are not alone. I am here for you. Though we're far apart your always in my heart. I think and pray for you always. You will find your voice. Its okay. I promise. It will come.
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Goal Updated
Please don't kill yourself... I know we dont' talk much but know please that you have friends here. It is hard to see purpose when we are in the darkness. Have patience. Don't give up. Never give up... though it is easy to do.
khabri
Things will get better. I know it doesn't seem like it now. Call a crisis line or go to the er. You don't need to be alone right now.
Ele1
please believe you are never alone, we are all here for you and supporting you. do call a crisis line or call up nami, or the hospital. but don't go that route.
kimmeroo
ITS NOT WORTH IT SWEETHEART! yOUR GOAL IS TO BE HAPPY! NOT TO END YOUR LIFE! I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT U. BUT I'VE BEEN THERE, AND SO HAS MY DAUGHTER. U NEED TO AND CALL A HOT LINE, THEY CAN HELP U! THAT'S WHY THEY ARE THERE, TO HELP. U ARE CRYING OUT FOR HELP, WELL PLEASE LET THEM HELP U. HUGS NAE' I WOULD LOVE TO GET TO KNOW U AS A FRIEND, BUT HOW CAN I IF U DO WHAT U WANT TO DO ON SATURDAY. SWEETY U NEED HELP, PLEASE CALL CRISIS. IF U ARE NOT SURE HOW TO DO THIS, GO TO THE TOP OF THE PAGE A CLICK HELP, AND THERE IS ALL KINDS OF INFOR ON CRISIS FROM DIFFRENT PLACES! HUGS NAE'
fibonae
HERE IS A LISTING OF KENTUCKY HOTLINES, PLEASE FIND THE RIGHT ONE AND CALL THEM! PLEASE!
fibonae
State : KENTUCKY
National Hopeline Network
Kentucky
Contact by: - Phone
Helpline 1: 1-800-SUICIDE
Helpline 2: 1-800-784-2433
Website: 1-800-suicide.com
24 Hour service:
Crisis Service
201 22nd Street
KY 41105-0790
ASHLAND
Kentucky
Contact by: - Phone
Helpline 1: 1-800-562-8909
24 Hour service:
Life Skills Helpline
707 E. Main St.
KY 42101
BOWLING GREEN
Kentucky
Contact by: - Phone
Helpline 1: 1-800-223-8913
Helpline 2: Teen Line: 1-888-837-3964
24 Hour service:
Corbin Emergency Services
American Greeting Card Road
Box 568
KY 40701
CORBIN
Kentucky
Contact by: - Phone
Helpline 1: (606) 528-7010
24 Hour service:
Elizabethtown Crisis Line
KY 42701
ELIZABETHTOWN
Kentucky
Contact by: - Phone
Helpline 1: (270) 769-1304
Helpline 2: TDD: 1-888-182-8266
Website: www.communicare.verizonsupersite.com
24 Hour service:
Kentucky River Community Care
PO Box 794
KY 41339-0794
HAZZARD
Kentucky
Contact by: - Phone
Helpline 1: (800) 262-7491
24 Hour service:
Hopkinsville Crisis Line
735 North Drive
KY 42240
HOPKINSVILLE
Kentucky
Contact by: - Phone
Helpline 1: 1-877-473-7766
24 Hour service:
Comprehensive Care Center
201 Mechanic Street
KY 40507-1096
LEXINGTON
Kentucky
Contact by: - Phone
Helpline 1: Teen Line: 1-800-928-8000
24 Hour service:
The Crisis & Information Center
101 W. Muhammad Ali Boulevard
KY 40202-1429
LOUISVILLE
Kentucky
Contact by: - Phone
Helpline 1: (502) 589-4313
Helpline 2: 1-800-221-0446
Helpline 3: TDD: (502) 589-4259
Helpline 4: 1-877-589-4259
Website: www.sevencounties.org
24 Hour service:
Crisis & Information Line
1001 Frederica St.
KY 42301
OWENSBORO
Kentucky
Contact by: - Phone
Helpline 1: Davies County: (270) 684-9466
Helpline 2: 1-800-433-7291
Website: www.rvbh.com
24 Hour service:
Prestonburg Helpline
18 S. Front Ave.
KY 41653
PRESTONSBURG
Kentucky
Contact by: - Phone
Helpline 1: 1-800-422-1060
24 Hour service:
fibonae
IF I DID NOT CARE I WOULD OF NOT DONE THIS FOR U. BUT I DO CARE SO PLEASE PICK UP THE PHONE AND CALL.
AND THEN LET US KNOW HOW U ARE DOING. U ARE IN MY THOUGHT AND PRAYERS AND MAY MY STRENGTH GOES WITH U! HUGS NAE'
fibonae
fibonae thank you for posting all those great resources! I hope she reads this and knows she isn't alone! I know its so hard when we loose sight of hope! I think we have all been there..
khabri
hi it's me again, i still haven't heard from u. won't u please just send me a message and let me know what is going on in your life? here's something u don't know. my daughter in the begining of september tried to end her life, and i thank god evry day that someone found her. and she got help. she has her good days and then her bad days. just think how your loved ones would feel if u do what u say u are doing this saturday. i know there are a lot of people who care and love u! much love hugs nae'
fibonae
depression is a terrible thing. you really don't think like that it is the depression that is getting you. go to a doctor and get proper meds and proper sleep and you won't feel like that. take a walk where it is warm and there is water. there is power in nature and sunshine. you will feel better. my prayers are with you.
79pounds
thanks but really i am done. people just don't get it. 12:oo sat is wat i call the time of death to be
hunterjumper
Then he wins...don't let him win! He's the one with the problems...you're just his victim!! Call and report him now!!! If you go at 12:00 on Saturday and don't report him first he'll just go on hurting others!! DON'T LET HIM WIN!! Conquer and come out victoriously!!! Don't give up the life you could have without a fight!!!
SingerChic
Hunter, what does it feel like right now? do you have feelings in your body somewhere? when I get upset, my stomach always goes into knots.
ThePhoenix
Dear most heavenly Father,
I come to you on my knees,Lord i humbly ask that you help this friend of mine.I don't know her well but she is still a child of yours.Lord please have the mercy on her help her in her time of need.please comfort her and ease her pain.this ailment we have has done a huge number on all of us.But a good majority of us can't handle it please god i ask you i plead with you hold her in your arms and if you would please also pray with me for her.ask your Father also to help and give her mercy this is so hard for her to handle it is just putting her over the edge.God i have extreme faith that you will do this for her.i ask this in your most precious name Lord jesus Christ amen
trish
I have no idea why I was led to your journal tonight (none whatsoever), but I found that I was looking at the pictures of you and your horse jumping and the pictures reminded me of me when I was young, I was reminded of so many tings looking at your pictures, msot of them good things. I used to ride and do hunter/jumper work and beginning dressage. Then I decided to read your journal for today and see you are feeling so so so low. This reminds me of me when I was young, as well. I had some pretty low low low times when I was somewhere around your age (altho I don't actually know how old you are). I do remember wishing I had someone to talk to, someone who would listen, someone who would talk back. I ended up leaving home altogether when I was 15yo and it was rough, but I lived through it, lol. It would mean the world to me if you would let me know if I can help in any way, listening, talking, about anything, whatever. I am definitely here for you if I can help. Maybe I'll read some of your other journals and se if there really is a similarity in us. (I know we both love jumping horses, that's for sure!) Hugs, hoping you can pull up out of this low spot, soon, message me if you need anything. ~Anne
anne7676
HunterJumper please think about what it would truely mean for you not to be here on earth. How many lives you impact. Your family, friends, coworkers, neighbors, and ALL of us on Daily Strength. I have said a prayer for you, and I think God has you in his hand right now. I asked him to watch over, and protect you from all the pain you are going through. I asked that you would be guided towards him, and not to what you have been planning to do. I asked him to show you how much he loves, cares, and needs you to stay on earth until he decides it is your time. That he only decides when that happens, and should not be for any of us to decide. I told him that you can't handle the pressures you have on you right now, and need him to comfort you right now. That I believe these are tests to see if you are faithful to him. I asked him to guide you to be faithful to him, and relieve you from all the unneccesary pain. I believe that we all will have many hard tests in our lives, but if we continue to be faithful in good & bad times all the blessing will be ours. I will continue to pray for you, and hope all the wonderful group people's comments will help you think twice about what you are planning. We are all going through some extreme times right now, but it like everything else will pass. We just have to keep faith. God bless you, and use the group to vent & gain more strength to face anything. We are here for you. HUGS from me.
AshlynsMomma
I hope you realize that so many others have been right where you are and pushed through it to see better days. There are so many compassionate friends here who care about you!
empathy
just to let all know first that 9i have only my father left and he wobn't care and no one else knows me and second this account is getting deactivated soon. the request is in
hunterjumper
I do so hope that you are feeling different & better now! I really hope that you can receive all the love and support that has been given on here and in turn see that you can carry on living. I can relate to reaching a point where death would seem better than life, but then there's the fact that life does change!!! and the old rotten stuff CAN be let go of!! Please look after you, you're too precious to end!!! Love from a fellow being who cares xx
lavenderS
We stick togehter here........
We all love you.
We're all going to make it because GOD loves us ...
You do your best .
Anytime you want to write to me or anyne here ....Do it ...we have all been through one thing or another and we understand you... Please let us help and be your friends...
WE CARE !!!!
LV... Bob
Timeman