Alexizmom's Journal

I came across this and thought I would share it with all of you......

                                               I seem to be falling apart.

                                   My attention span can be measured in seconds.

                                               My patience in minutes.

                                               I cry at the drop of a hat.

                                               I forget things constantly.

                                            The morning toast burns daily.

                                       I forget to sign checks, half of everything

                                               in the house is misplaced.

                                          Feelings of anxiety and restlessness

                                                are my constant companions.

                                               Rainy days seem extra dreary;

                                                Sunny days seem an outrage.

                            Other people's pain and frustrations seem insignificant.

                            Laughing, happy people seem out of place in my world.

                                         It has become routine to feel half crazy. 

                                                  I am normal, I am told.

                                               I am a newly grieving person.

I thought I was loosing my mind but I guess all of this is normal. The only thing that isn't normal is my life and it will never be again. 

Oh my Alexiz, mommy loves you and I miss you so badly. Everyday is one day closer to the day I will be with you and I promise I will never let you go.