Alexizmom's Journal

I have finally entered my precious angels room. The smell in the room is of my baby. The room smells of baby lotion and Downy. The suitcase that I packed for her when we went out of town is still packed. I opened it and started taking out her clothes and had to stop. It was hurting too badly. The clothes that my mom got her for Christmas, still on hangers with tags on them, hanging on the door knob. I couldn't handle it I fell to my knees and bawled. Her beautiful bedroom with all her beautiful clothes, her baby bed, the cd that I played for her all the time still in the cd player, it's like time stood still in there. Oh it hurts so badly. I walked out of her room and before I closed her door I looked around at everything then closed the door. I know this was a big step. Oh my precious baby girl I MISS YOU SO BADLY. Mommy loves you so much.