Well...things are good
November 19, 2009 9:23pm
Well me and my friend are talking again. It was over a week since we had spoken. I couldn't take it anymore and she was online and I asked if I …
mystrengthnotfade 
12:55pm Thursday
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About Me
mystrengthnotfade
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About Me
It is complicated; I am complicated. People waste their time trying to figure me out and fail. I have been trying for 22 years so what makes them think they can do it. I am cold, calculating, and methodical. I can be sadistic, cruel, or caring and thoughtful. It all depends on what the person expresses towards me. I never forget transgretions nor do I forgive easily; if at all. I am what I am in the end. I have tried to change myself but it ended badly. I have my ups and downs. As to who I am...I have no idea. I do not even know my favorite color, or movie...when asked what those things are, I have to recall what I have told others in the past. Well there is a little insight to whom who wishes to read.
It is complicated; I am complicated. People waste their time trying to figure me out and fail. I have been trying for 22 years so what makes them think they can do it. I am cold, calculating, and methodical. I can be sadistic, cruel, or caring and thoughtful. It all depends on what the person expresses towards me. I never forget transgretions nor do I forgive easily; if at all. I am what I am in the end. I have tried to change myself but it ended badly. I have my ups and downs. As to who I am...I
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Sometimes everything and then sometimes nothing.
Sometimes everything and then sometimes nothing.
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mystrengthnotfade wrote a journal entry: Well...things are good 9:23pm
Well me and my friend are talking again. It was over a week since we had spoken. I couldn't take…
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mystrengthnotfade updated their status 12:55pm
Right now good.....very good!…
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November 15, 2009 11:18pm
Well I lost my best friend. She barely talks to me any more and she speaks to me only if we run into each other. It started when I told her I needed …
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Worse n worse
November 12, 2009 7:26am
I just keep making things worse....I'm a mess and nothing makes sense. I hurt and I am making things worse the more I try to fix it. I called out …
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I don't know what to do....
November 3, 2009 7:03pm
Ok my ex texts me this afternoon telling me she misses me.....this wouldn't have been surprising since she has been doing this for a …
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The Bottom
October 28, 2009 12:04pm
I can't fucking take any more shit! Last night I was doing an online quiz, spent an hour and a half on it to get a 60...it was the last straw. I …
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a troll is someone who is out to cause trouble there is a link in that thread that wanderingvet posted that goes into more detail
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Support Groups
Close Anger Management
What can I say...I go from 0 straight to 100...there is no middle ground when I go off.
Close Bipolar Disorder
It has been said that I have it or that they don't know. I confuse the most learned doctors.
Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)BPD is the big one. I have APD, and show many of the signs for all of the other ones depending on which one of me who is answering the question.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionIts a pain thats hard to describe, unlike physical pain its not temporary, its there all the time. The only thing that changes is how bad. I hate medication so I refuse to take any!
Treatments
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- I cant do it for shit!
Open Loneliness
No matter how many times somebody says they are there for me I still feel like I'm by myself. I've always felt like a ghost.
Open High Blood Pressure
Recently diagnosed. I am 23 with high blood pressure. Before my meds it was 149/109 while perfectly at rest.
Treatments
- Norvasc Working / Worked
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