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Amyes 
6:29pm, November 6, 2009
So i have my appointment with my counselor on monday- i've never met her before so i'm sorta incredibly nervous about it. I couldn't sleep because of it last night and now i can't sleep tonight- i'm shaking yet again and i can't stop. I wanted to try going to church tmrw but i won't be able to get enough sleep so i don't think i will. I think i'll start going once i get back from Revy. When i originally planned to go to church i didn't know i was going back to Revy so soon. I need to go shopping to get a few things tmrw too- i only have 2 days left in Burnaby and then i'll be gone for 10 whole days! I already have plans for my first night back in Revy which is good- strange for me though. It'll be good since i'll get to make some money by working. Nervous about how it'll go at work- I don't want to answer questions about what has happened since i stopped working. Good thing i have my Ativan- i know i'll probably wind up with a panic attack my first day back at work. I don't even know why i said i'd work- it'll mean i won't be bored but still it might not be the best thing to keep me busy. Oh well what happens happens.
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I'm reading your journal on Aug. 20, so I don't know if your appointment was the 17th or if it's the 24th. If the 17th, I hope it went well for you. If the 24th, try not to be so nervous. Counselors want to help and want you to feel comfortable. It's extremely unlikely that you will talk about anything she hasn't heard before, so don't worry so much. I know,that's easier said than done! But I think it will go fine, and afterward you'll wonder what you were so worried about. I hope work goes OK for you, too.
debah