A strange week
I live on the Outer Banks. We got hit by the remnants of Hurricane Ida, as did so many other places in the south and on the east coast. The wind, …
I just realized I don't have a profile, so here goes. My Joe was diagnosed in March, 2008 with billiary duct cancer, very rare, and pretty much terminal, since there are no symptoms. He had just gone for a routine physical, and blood work found his liver functions out of whack. Thus started our year of hell. He was given one to six months, and died 3 months later. We had always talked about how life is fleeting. But when it actually happens?? This is THE hardest thing I've ever gone through, and I miss him so much. I'm trying, though, for him and for me.
I just realized I don't have a profile, so here goes. My Joe was diagnosed in March, 2008 with billiary duct cancer, very rare, and pretty much terminal, since there are no symptoms. He had just gone for a routine physical, and blood work found his liver functions out of whack. Thus started our year of hell. He was given one to six months, and died 3 months later. We had always talked about how life is fleeting. But when it actually happens?? This is THE hardest thing I've ever gone through, and
Cooking, gardening, reading, walking, going to the beach, listening to music, drinking wine (!)
Cooking, gardening, reading, walking, going to the beach, listening to music, drinking wine (!)
15 hugs received, 6 hugs given, 3 journal comments, 1 discussion post
marjoe commented on Sandy712’s journal entry Tomorrow is 8 weeks 4:00pm
I'm in complete agreement with you, Sandy - this society, especially American society, wants a quick…
marjoe gave missulance a hug 3:46pm
((((Hugs)))), Denise - to help for the past few days.…
marjoe gave GlorN a hug 3:43pm
Gloria - I just clicked on your site - what a great picture!! I can see the love and enjoyment of each…
marjoe gave lindalun a hug 3:32pm
Hi, Linda - I just wanted to tell you I'm thinking about you today, and this week upcoming. I know how…
marjoe wrote a discussion post in the Widows & Widowers support group: train of thought - need advice 3:25pm
As I lolled about this morning (slept in until 6 a.m.!), thinking back to last year at this time, like…
I live on the Outer Banks. We got hit by the remnants of Hurricane Ida, as did so many other places in the south and on the east coast. The wind, …
Good one, huh? I may be 53, but I still have all my Black Sabbath albums from when I was 15. And I'm listening to Paranoid right now. …
Came home, went on line to see my messages - and I got one from friends that Joe and I had hung out with in Florida 2 years ago, asking how we were. …
I had a pretty good meltdown yesterday. Out of the blue, like it normally hits, and guilt was on one shoulder and regret on the other. I had a good …
Sat outside watching the clouds and listening to old Santana albums. Oh, music, how it can just go right to my heart and soul.... watched that sliver …
Marsha: Thank you very much. The holidays are really hard and it comes along with a lot of pain and sorrow. I miss Carlos so much that it getting harder and harder. I am having breakdowns more often this month. Everyone says it due to the holidays. Saturday, I was house cleaning and found a receipt where my husband had gone to rent some movies for us to watch and I just started crying and had a melt down. My daughter and son were very loving and understood what I was going through. They ended up doing most of the cleaning. To be honest it is embarrassing because my house was dirty and I have always been a cleanning freak. My kids understand that I am depressed so they try there best to help me. I don't know what I would do without them. I hope you have a great thanksgiving. God bless you. Hugs Linda
Hi Marsha,
Wanted to send you a big bear hug to start your day. I read something that someone wrote about cancer and I think it still applies to life now...something about being on a roller coaster and the idiot operator won't let you off.
I think some day I will find something on the ride to hit the operator over the head with on the way by. Then I'll climb down myself. Hey, maybe we're in the same car. You got anything with you that will work?
-Diana
Thank you. I am not offended by what you said. In fact, it made me smile. I appreciate your support. It means a great deal to me. BIG HUGS - Sandy
Wow! You said it perfectly. The struggle of a new identity as a solo is not easy. Thanksgiving was my husbands birthday so for the last three years my kids, grandkids, and I spend Thanksgiving at a resort. Something totally different from the ones we celebrated as a family when my husband was with us. It is so weird, to be surrounded by loved ones and outwardly enjoying yourself but feeling lonely on the inside because your soul mate is not there. It is tough. The only comfort is when you share those feelings to realize you are not alone or crazy. Thank you so much for sharing. Your thoughts help but mine at ease. Just to know you are not going it alone. hang in there!
Me and my boys will celebrate our survival too this year - only we're opting for homemade pizza - thank goodness - I couldn't face a turkey. How far are you from Jacksonville (FL that is)? A lot of NC is a day trip from here. I'd like to throw a convention of us all sometime (or would it be a weekend bender? LOL) - I wish we were all geographically closer. Love and Hugs, Martha