Journal

Hi friends, I just realized it has been a while since I wrote a journal entry. 

I am still recovering from my breast reduction. Almost a month later, and still pretty sore. All those nerve endings that were cut are still firing, and I get nearly constant zaps. Wish I could explain it better, but it really feels like electrical current. So weird. Otherwise, scars are good and I feel much better, cause all the pain from carrying the heavy girls is gone!

However.................as of today, I am 10 lbs below my goal weight.  At 5'3", normal weight for me is 114-141.  Twelve pounds and I will be underweight. I feel good, and have lots of energy, and love wearing size small shirts and sweaters. But friends and family are starting to comment that "You don't need to lose any more weight." 

It's really hard to be at this point, only 8 months and below goal weight. The program laid out by my doctor is an 18 month program, with food increases of 2 oz every 2 months. I have increased the size of my pouch to about 3/4-1 cup, but as you all know, when we get full, no more goes in. I've been trying to eat a bite or two extra every meal. I've added some carbs, and some simple sugars in the form of fruit. But with my calorie load being so low every day, and my metabolism burning all of those calories, gaining weight has become really hard.

I feel almost guilty even writing about this because so many people are struggling to lose their weight. From what I have read, a small percentage of WLS patients have this problem. I was so motivated to lose my excess weight, and worked so hard. I'm proud of my success, but worried that I continue to lose. My life is very active, taking care of my grandaughter, cleaning my house, and I just have to get in a walk every day if possible. I think my metabolism has shifted into overdrive, and I'm not sure how to turn it back down!

Enough of that. The wonderful news is that I now have a 3 mo old grandaughter and a week old grandson. He was born 7 weeks early, and will be in intensive care until the end of November. He's a trooper though, breathing on his own and soon to be weaned off the feeding tube. And my other daughter is due in late November, so Christmas will be wonderful this year!

Hope this message finds all of you well and in good spirits..............Teri