Journal

ok so here is the back sotry before i get into it all. I an the oldest of 5 kids 3 girls 2 boys... I'm 26, then goes sister 25, brother 23 and twins sister and brother 22. well my youngest sister always talks about this guy or that guy and how cute he is and never ever thries to get anything started with him, never makes the first move or tries to date him. soo I ended up breaking up with my boyfriend of 2 years last month, the relationship actually ends months ago but neither of us did anything about until i decided i didnt deserved him treating me like that. well i run into a friend that i used to have a crush on a long time ago online. i tell me sister about she says hes hot. i think nothing about it. not heres the story. so me and said guy start talking he asks me to meet him up at the bar to hang out and catch up since it has been so long. I say sure y not. we talk have fun it comes up that we both had /have crushes on each other, he walks me to my car kisses me good night. my sister gets crazy mad, because of course this of all guys was going to be the guy that she was going to try and date. i felt bad but i didnt. so i told her i wouldn stop talking to him and if she wanted him to go for it i would stay way way way out of the picture for her, she is very self consius ( spelt wrong) she said nto he likes me, but she is being such a bitch to me.. i told her i understand where she is coming from but she needs to understand where im coming from, she never makes the first move on any guy, and when i mentioned i liked him she never said she was going to do anything, anyway one of our friends was going to set her up on a date and that was all she could talk aboout for the week leading up to the date that i had with the guy. and now i think my sister might have said something to him, becasue today the guy is not sure if he can date his friends sister. he has to think about it. so i told him he might want to think but not think to long bc ill be gone if he thinks to long.   arrrrggghhhhhhh guys and arrrrggggggghhhhh girls    why does everything have to be sooo difficult. just hang out have a good time if you liek each  other then go for it ..........

arrrrgggghhhh. i hate living at home with my parents. because they are mad at my brothers they are taking it out on me right now. i started a load of my moms laundry for her yesturday and she is pissed because it has taken me 2 days to do my ( well its hers ) laundry. then if i try to go in my room to just get away so i dont start a fight.. they get pissed and tell me i cant stay in my room. gosh i cant stand this..............