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tbhope1 
Hi Everybody!
I've been thinking of this group, but never get around to writing.
I am very busy with Avon, being in leadership now with 8 recruits, and doing all the holiday stuff. I do Avon to keep from getting depressed. I have Fibromyalgia and that is a daily struggle, which make the cancer look like a piece of cake! But at the same time, my body has trouble recovering from such things as the surgery, and I'm not completely back to normal, if ever will be. I wanted to mention that I have great trouble thinking and focusing now, and am wondering if other people have had that experience after surgery and radiation. Maybe it's from the Fibromyalgia and added stress of doing more with Avon, but I've heard it can be from radiaition, and I'm also wondering how much is going into menopause as fast as I did?
I still get hot flashes, but I think I'm getting more used to them. I don't drink hardly as much coffee, and switched to decaf even. I wear different clothes so I am not suffocating when one hits.
I also noticed that something inside seems "lower"? It actually seems to be right at the opening. Does anyone know what I'm talking about? Like it's going to fall out!
I don't like sex at all because it is still painful for me, between the hips being so stiff, and the rest of all of it. But I think my marraige will handle it.
I did get a video on Tai Chi, and find it fun and I can actually do it even with this body. I only do a little with the video, and never push it.
We have a beautiful fall day today, so maybe I will get outside a little bit. I have trouble leaving my house, and my therapist told me that is from my post traumatic stress disorder. If you want to see my personal website to learn a little more about me, you can see it at http://mysite.verizon.net/resvz1wf/blossomsofhope/
I've just recently updated it to include more personal stuff. I'm working on facing what happened and acknowledging it.
My therapist told me to start putting some things out there for others so I can help them more. I love helping others, in fact, I used to be a personal, spiritual coach, but gave it out because I get too fatigued. But at least maybe someone can read some things and we can email or something.
I'm still trying to figure out how all this cancer stuff is affecting me. I know it has opened my eyes to the plight of others with cancer, but I also notice that I am always wondering if it will come back to me in other places.
I apologize for not writing so much to you all, but it doesn't mean I wasn't thinking of you. Just hard to sit at the computer some days.
Love you all!
Theresa
