lfarr1's Journal

I am on an emotional roller coaster today.  Mood swings like crazy.  I get these spells every few months when I get extremely worn down and then I have panic attacks and seems like I am losing control.  It is something I can usually pinpoint and redirect myself too.  Bio's, fianances, usually something obvious that triggers these.  But today I should be on top of the wrold.  Had a pleasant weekend.  bio mom still in jail, bio dud no show.  Relaxed some, but was still very busy, cleaning, shopping etc....my nephews, one of thems gf and her 3 kiddos came by Sat night and watched fireworks and ate.  Was not really a planned thing, so it through my schuduling off and yesterday I had 2 donkeys visit.  That was an unplanned thing also. SO I guess in really thinking about the events of the weekend I guess it was more stressful than usual. Okay I know a lot of little things have probably added up to big things but I hate feeling like this because everything else little make me crazy.  I mostly have to keep saying my little saying over and over.

God will not put more upon me than I can bare.

God is my strenght. 

One day at a time.

I can not change yesterday, and I can not fret about tomorrow, I can only make today the best it can be.