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You will in time. Give yourself a break. It does't take long to heal physically. It is the emotional healing that takes time.

It is sooo hard to get through this time... I know how much pain you are feeling, & can understand why you don't want your girls to see you crying, but it is important for you to do what you need to when you need to - otherwise you will only end up suffering longer. And think of the valuable lesson you are modelling for your daughters, who will grow up without fear of expressing themselves. With lots of big hugs, oxoxo

The thing with grief that I've learned is that it comes in waves...sometimes ripples and sometimes thundering waves...but it's always under the surface. I too hope for a day when it's not quite so thunderous either. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

I know how you feel. But sometimes kids can be a great comfort. My 5y/o daughter will pick up when I am sad and just come over and ask, "mommy are you thinking about the baby?" I just nod to her and she gives me a hug. It will get better with time but it is hard when somebody brings it up.

You will get to the sigh.
Have faith that your heart will heal enough that you will fondly remember the feelings of joy that overcame you with the original bfp and only have a sigh over the pain.
I sat at the computer for weeks sobbing big ugly tears, crying during prayer, crying in the bathroom- the tears are going to come.
I have two boys so when you say you do not want them to see you cry anymore I understand completely. I felt like I was dragging my boys down into my grief pit when they are so carefree and deserve to be giggling over something silly. But, you know you are making the effort to move forward and it is important for your children to see that even though your heart is hurting you will not let it stop you from grabbing hold of the good times when you can.
The days of just letting out a sigh when you are caught off guard will come- you just have to travel this road of scattered tears before you arrive.
Hugs.

hang in there darling. i know its hard, but stay strong for your husband, your beautiful girls, and most importantly, yourself.

I am so sorry for your loss, & sad that you feel alone. I hope that we can help you through this site... Thank you for inviting me to be your friend, oxo

I'm so sorry. I agree that dr appointments and bloodwork is just a constant reminder of your loss. I remeber looking at my husband when we lost our baby at Christmas asking if every Christmas was going to be bad now. His response was no but there will always be a sad part of Christmas. He's right. We all move forward and on with life but there will always be a sad spot in our hearts for the ones we have lost. May you find peace and healing.

I am so sorry for what you are going through. I know how you feel. I still dwell on my loss. You will have good days and bad days. Just remember that your little one is watching over you.