Journal Entry for March 28, 2009
March 28, 2009 1:52pm
Fear. Something everyone deals with. What happens when things from the past come up and bite you in the ass? It is terrible when it is one thing you …
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midnightdancer84
2:33pm, November 5, 2009
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About Me
midnightdancer84
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About Me
I am a mother of 4 biologically, and 5 as a step mom to be. I own my own floral business. I'm 25. I am dealing with a lot of stress, past violence issues, sexual assault victim, losing my father at 18, being a young mom, feeling unappreciated by the ones who should care, and the list goes on. I feel there is no hope left in this world. I feel like I am crashing and have no way of coming back up. When it rains it pours they say, so when does this storm end for me?
I am a mother of 4 biologically, and 5 as a step mom to be. I own my own floral business. I'm 25. I am dealing with a lot of stress, past violence issues, sexual assault victim, losing my father at 18, being a young mom, feeling unappreciated by the ones who should care, and the list goes on. I feel there is no hope left in this world. I feel like I am crashing and have no way of coming back up. When it rains it pours they say, so when does this storm end for me?
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Interests
music, video games, music, video games, and of course, MY KIDS.
music, video games, music, video games, and of course, MY KIDS.
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November 5
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midnightdancer84 wrote a discussion post in the Celiac Disease support group: The worst day ever 2:40pm
I don't know why I am feeling the way I do. I have extreme pain in my stomach, it feels like a bomb about…
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midnightdancer84 updated their status 2:33pm
Last night and today are horrible. My stomach is in some of the worst pain...…
July 20
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midnightdancer84 turned 25 12:00am
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I lost...
March 19, 2009 2:58pm
Well, I was doing well. Key word, was..... and now I am back with my major Pepsi addiction! Ugh! I can't seem to win nor overcome my own …
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oops.......
March 10, 2009 11:45am
I was doing well on the no drinking pepsi thing.... well, until I went to my mom's and she is an avid Pepsi drinker. Back to where I started.
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Now whats going on?!?!?!
March 5, 2009 2:33pm
I am lost, confused, scared, and worried. I had my last monthly in the middle of January, and it came early. Since then, nothing! SO...... now what? …
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Still no Pepsi, thank you powerade
March 5, 2009 2:17pm
Almost a week, and no pepsi. If anyone knew in full detail how much pepsi I drank a day. Ugh! lol. But now, I drink nada, zilch, zip! Now I have …
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Hope you are feeling better, your status showed you were in miserable pain! YIKES! I hope you are better by now, I am praying for ya!
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Hanging in there. I agree with you about the counselor view. But I finally found a counselor who I could relate to and feel safe with. I make the rules and I know that she understands but then again only another survivor could.
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If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
-Nickelback 
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you doing okay sweetie
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I am thinking about you and hope all is well
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Support Groups
Close Crohn's Disease & Ulcerative Colitis
I just found out I may have crohns disease. I am scheduled to go in for a colonoscopy... I am terrified...
Close Sexual Abuse
I was 16 years old when I was raped. I was raped by 2 different men, one of which I knew very well. After being raped multiple times by the both of them in the one I didn't knows home, I was taken out to the country and raped many more times. I had my throat, my wrists, my chest and my private region slashed open. I was left for dead in a ditch to die. I found counseling to not work. It was to painful to talk about. Now, 8 yrs later, I see myself as a stronger person.
Treatments
- Leave Working / Worked
- It gave me time to think things over. To reevaluate the situation. It gave me soem me time. I hated being bothered by counselors and people who "think" they "know" everything I went through.
Open Rape
I was 16 years old when I was raped. I was raped by 2 different men, one of which I knew very well. After being raped multiple times by the both of them in the one I didn't knows home, I was taken out to the country and raped many more times. I had my throat, my wrists, my chest and my private region slashed open. I was left for dead in a ditch to die. I found counseling to not work. It was to painful to talk about. Now, 8 yrs later, I see myself as a stronger person.
Treatments
- Rape Counseling Not Working
- It didn't work.
Open ADHD / ADD
midnightdancer84 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Asthma
Treatments
- Advair Too Soon to Tell
- Albuterol Working / Worked
- Breathing Exercises Not Working
Open Back Pain
I have had severe back pain since I was a teen. The main portion of it is caused by a pinched siatic nerve in my lower back. The rest is prob a lil bit of stress, along with car accidents and a few tumbles down the stairs.
Treatments
- Chiropractic Adjustment Not Working
Open Burns
Well, mine is kinda funny, after the fact. My fiance made hamburger helper, and forgot the cool then serve part of it. Between the 2 of us, it managed to get dumped on my arm and literally began eating through my skin. The dr said it was 3rd degree. It hurt like crazy changing the dressings, but other than the scar, I am better now.
Treatments
- Silvadene Working / Worked
- It worked awesome. The smell wasn't pleasant, but my burn wasn't supposed to be healed for quite some time according to the dr, and I was able to remove all dressings from my arm within a months time. My advise, cake it on thick. If you run out, the dr will give you another script.
Open Bereavement
Treatments
Open Insomnia
midnightdancer84 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Parenting Preschoolers (3-5)
I'm a mom of a 1 yr old, a 2 1/2 yr old, a 5 yr old, and a 3 1/2 yr old. I am also the step mom to be of a 5 yr old with some serious defiant issues.
Treatments
- 1-2-3 Magic Not Working
- Child Time-out Somewhat Helpful
- Patience Somewhat Helpful
- Positive Reinforcement Working / Worked
Open Spina Bifida
my 3yr old daughter has it... i know very little about it
Open Endometriosis
midnightdancer84 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis (ALS)
midnightdancer84 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Celiac Disease
midnightdancer84 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.
