dairyqeen's Journal

i am still beaming from how amazing a new mindset can be i have maintained a positive upbeat disposition despite opposition from those faimiliar to me that try to draw me back to negativity and despair and hopelessness, we must almost everyday fight for our peace, no one has the right to intrude on youur solitude and your solace, i reffuse to give up wihtout a fight to enjoy this journey we call life.  We have a God given right to exist and carve that existence the way we see fit if someone is uncomfortable with it thats their problem we don't have to let it becomes ouurs and we can continue to love them and move on . i have lived the majority of my life trying mieserably to make those around me happy and denying myself guess what they weren't happy and neither was I. so my discovery has been to find out what i like, where do i want to go, who do i want with me and not making apologies for it , letting go of heavy weights like carryiing around people on our back God never intended for that the Lord said his yoke was easy and his burden was light , doesnt sound like the burden we are carrying belong to God we must stop allowing others to heap their loads on our back we are not mules we at least not anymore .  Some of us are because we have allowed people to put saddles on our backs, the canteen that holds the water, their treasure, the rocks, the pans , a change of clothing anything they desired to put on us we accepted it, WELL I AM NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE NO MORE WEIGHT NO MORE SHACLES SHALL BE ATTACHED TO BIND ME TO PEOPLE OR SITUATIONS THAT ARE NOT MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We must all evalutate where we are, where we would like to be, who we would like to be with us , and how are we going to get there. i am not advocating selfishness , just selfullness fullfill yourself , your dreams , your hopes, your aspirations, without apology, without guilt, and withouut permission who in your life holds the reigns to your life , who is standing between you and your God given purpose ask yourself the tough questions whell i have to go and make dinner hope all are well and well adjusted emotionally i think this is where our true healing lies even though the situations doesnt necessarily change our response to it muust i love all and in Jesus name have the peasce of God in your homes and heart on today see ya later dairy