dairyqeen's Journal

hey all hey to me i have had a pretty restful day i was able to cook breakfast for my family and everyone seemed happy i think i will tempt everyones taste buds, i made grits, scrambled eggs , biscuits, orange juice, guess what  i even was able to make dinner i made saute cabbage, baked leg quarters, cornbread, and i managed to sleep between meals but overall i had a pretty mellow day, my mood is pretty optimistic which i usually am, i believe that our moods affect our health and those we come in contact with, i just watch even people who believe they are telling the truth say something negative and all the people in the room feel like someone just dropped a stink bomb everyone know the attitude and the person that said it stinks and noone wants to go home with them lol unless you live with them to the which i do you just learn to keep your distant and you pray for them because you know it takes so much energy to be negative than it does to be happy and positive. i feel for people that are like that because they are really loners and have convince themselves that they dont need anyone no man is an island no man lives alone. i know i have the personality that needs people i love conversation, i love huge socials, i love the holidays and i cook so my family and friends have an excuse to stop by and fellowship. i have given my entire life to people whether its working with trouble kids in groups home, working in daycare, or fostercare, or working in the church with women ministry or speaking at ladies conference i choose people anyday, they teach us so much about ourselves how we interact is a greater reflection of who you are than who you try to describe yourself to be. but healthwise today hasnt been to bad, yes i have had pain but it hasnt been to the point i just laid around in agony i feel i accomplished much i saw my one year old grandson and enjoyed him so much i never knew you could love you kids, kids more than you love them but it is true seeing the next generation of you and your husband is amazing see the family resemblance and the traits are just so funny to watch not to mention the kid parent this kid just steals my heart i feel so good in my mind today. its as though my head is clear and there was a cloudy day but the sun has burst through the clouds and you see the rays and they are majestic and bright and the air is fresh after the rain wow just a poetic moment lol but i hope this entry finds all my friends and those i have yet to meet well i have to go to the dr tommorrow and see if i am having nueropthy in my hands and feet or just some complications to my medications i really find myself having to be my own pharmacist those that work i continue those that have to many sideeffects i stop and sometimes i feel like a guinea pig like they are merely trying this med or that going einee minee mineno mo  or something like that wasnt sure of the spelling. also i really did good with my eating i ate off of saucers so my portions were very small and i made a point to leave some on the plate tommorrow  i plan on being more accurate on drinking the 10 eight ounces of water i am going to make goals everyday even minute goal and meet them to reward myself on the goals met. and i think i will be more successful than trying for big goals and not meeting them and not caring i will lose every ounces of excess weight i have this year that also a gift i will give to myself to aid in my health i will also seek more holistic ways to treat my fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue i will learn to say no and not let others expectations of me become my expectations of me, my husband even had the audacity to say you shouldnt eat this and you shouldnt eat that and  wow it looks like you are gaining weight you all know my comment back was like thanks as if i needed that .  we have to become more introspective so that the outside forces will not mean more to us than us. at least thats what i am starting to figure out not saying people can not be supportive just that it shouldnt matter to us over our own voice. i have decided also that i am going to cut out all negative people off i am going for postivity alllllllllllllll they wayyyyyyyyyyyyy i am so deeply grateful to the many dailystrength comments and post that have kept me going i sometimes cant wait to get on line to see who has posted or to post on someone that i might be of  help to and nanny goat you have prove to be one of my greatest supporter and i want to personally thank you for you searching me out and befriending me and for understanding and to all of the rest lil stubby and scene queen and congrats on the new baby gotta go my arms and hands are starting to hurt living out loud and loving large good nite all